My future is in a blur...

Not a gd weekend.. Finally received the letter from NTU SCI...
Was so anxious about it i opened it w/o even taking off my boots when i got home...

Sadly, but expectedly, i was rejected.. It was expected.. But still.. i feel the disappontment.. The sadness that engulfed me after reading the letter was not easy to take..
Took a cool shower to cool myself down..
All i could tell myself was.. 'u shd have known...'
I was juz being naive.. Being hopeful.. Being dumb...

Managed to gather most of the ppl at my place to discuss and check out the internet for our transport and accomodation for the Euro trip we are planning...
More or less the main route is out already.. Left all the mimor details..
After that we also went to the library after dinner to check out some travel guides..
Each got a book to read up.. On all the different places we're planning to go...

I took Paris.. Anyway it was me who suggested Paris to begin with.. So might as well be me.. And i wun mind learning a little of French juz in case we need it over there.. Haha..

Life hasn't been gg well for me.. There juz seems to be too many cock ups.. Too many failures.. Too many disappointments...
Now that i can't get into SCI.. I really dunno wad i gg to do.. Uni study wad?? I really dunnno.. Argh... Wad i wanna work as?? I have no idea too... My future is in a blur..

Its like driving in a car with no idea where u shd be heading.. As if that wasn't bad enuf, it has to start pouring and visibility drops further...

Ok.. i've typed alot.. Nothing to do.. Glad to see Er Ge's post.. Proving his existance in this cyberworld...
Oh yah DM, when u gg SimLim lemme noe.. Might wanna go down as well..

Alan.. Rejected.. Dejected..