Back from SGH..

Well.. Went SGH National Heart Centre todae.. Went there, took ECG again.. Waited in queue for long long time.. See the specialist.. Talk less than 2mins.. And there..I'm outta the place..

Only thing i got, 2 more appointments for checkup.. Basically todae's session was totally useless..
Taking 2 more tests on Aug23 and gg back to see the specialist on Sept9...

Luckily got whole day off.. But nothing to do... Got time also dunno do wad..

Oh..i got a job..

Alan

Down memory lane...

Todae, after booking out, went over to pick my sis up frm sch.. Not smthing unusual.. Ever since i became 0800-1730 its quite often i do tt..

As i was lookin out for my sis among all the kids, the memory of me when i was in Pri Sch came to me.. I was probably like one of them back then, can't wait to tell mum about the newest full marks for spelling.. Or how the boy from the other class got caned.. I guess life back then was much more carefree.. No worries.. Now its different..

Alan

" Imagination is more important than facts. "
Albert Einstein

I'm sick...

Got the flu.. Sore throat.. Feelin feverish... Basically horrible..

Nothing to do.. Juz wanna type something..

Oh to all my Fantasy League pals.. The league is open liao.. Though i'm quite sure no one will select their teams so early.. But there are some changes to the games.. Scoring system also got abit of modifications.. So u guys shd check it out...

Alan...

A*choo...

Mahjong craze...

Juz finish a 2nd round of mahjong in a day... Spent the whole night and early morning playin mahjong at Alvin's hse ystdae.. Alogn wth JK and WK, we headed to his hse straight after finishing our pool session at Parkway..

Came home and slpt the whole afternoon... Den met Alvin,KKK and WK for dinner be4 all headed for my place for another round of Mahjong.. Loser was WK so he treated us to some drinks...

Fri was quite a horrible day for me.. My chest was feelin uncomfortable thru the whole evening.. I was so scared.. So tis tht suddenly came to me: i shd increase my life insurance.. Leave more money to my parents in case anything happen to me...

They say life is short.. So we shd treasure every min of it and make full use of all the time we got.. But since life is short, why bother??

Alan

" i've made my mistakes, got nowhere to run. the nights go on as i'm fadin away..
I juz wanna scream...... How could this happen to me???? "

..

Collected 'A' level cert todae.. Its one of the most awful looking piece of paper i ever gotten.. Damn.. Can't blame anyone or anything.. Its my fault and its only my fault..

Went to library on my own.. Returned the books and borrowed a few.. Den went home walkin in the rain.. Picked up my sis frm sch be4 leavin for HouMall again to meet WK for dinner and pool..

Race to 11.. Lost 11-10.. Really felt damn 'sway'.. Sigh.. Everything seems to be on the downside for me.. Recently i haven been happy at all.. And it doesn't help tt Senghou seems to be gettin more heated discussions everytime we talk bout something.. Esp durin soccer... Seems tt wadeva the gang do, someone will be unhappy..

I feel like all my confidence (however little there was in the first place) are being taken away... My morale is below sea-level no matter wad i am doing..

Alan

" If i lose it all, there'll be nothing left to lose." - is tt how i shd look at my life??

Sizzlinh sizzlers...

Todae bascially played pool and had dinner wth Senghou (- the on duty JK)

Dinner was at Sizzler's.. Quite worth the money..

Den on way back talked so much bout wad we can do and where we can go.. End up?? Go home..

Tmrl soccer.. TYS and WK bought their Total90.. Alvin and KKK already hav them..
Tt leaves me.. Guess i'm sticking wth my Umbro.. Anyway i'm only a utility player..

Alan..

School of Military Medicine...

Posted to SMM.. But the combat medic course only starts on 19th Sept..

For now i'm considered Temp Support Staff.. Meanin stay out and slack..

Went for dinner wth TYS den played bball at TYS's hse there wth him and JK..

Juz got home.. Feelin so broke..

Alan

"Wo yi lu xiang bei..."

School Routine Orders: Posting out....

I'm posted out.. Out of SISPEC.. Out of Tekong..

I'm suppose to be happy.. But.. I'm havin mixed feelings.. Come to tink of it, life hasn't really been tt bad on Trainin Team at SISPEC HQ.. Gonna miss everyone there.. And the durian picking and eatin sessions.. Doubt i'll ever hav tt kind of life again...

Well.. Posted to Nee Soon Camp.. As a Combat Medic..

Kinda stupid.. We're ppl OOC frm ASLC.. Wad makes them tink we're fit to go thru the combat medic course? Anyway, the course haven start and i probably will be doing nthing when i report there tmrl.. Maybe by the time the course starts, i'll be downgraded at the start of it..

Alan

" they walk, we walk
they run, we run
they carry, we carry more
they fall, we cannot fall
cos they need us to save them"
Combat Medic

Nights off..

Addicted to Jay's 'Yi Lu Xiang Bei' (Initial D theme) liao.. Its on replay on my player.. Listenin to it every time i got free time.. Haven seen the lyrics yet.. Dun really noe wad he singing yet.. Its juz the melody and music.. I juz listen to the song go... Nice...

Tmrl bookin out for off till thurs.. Allow us to collect 'A' lvl cert.. Sigh.. 'A' Levels...

Few more hrs to bookin in... Can't wait for payday.. Really really broke...

Alan sadly...

Book in day...

Once again its book in day..

Stayed over at Alvin's hse last nite.. Chiong Underground 2 and PES4.. Slpt at 6 am only to wake up at 8am for bball...

Watched Initial D liao... Quite ok movie wad.. Why some say no gd?

BBall session wasn't as fun.. Maybe its me... Its always me isn't it...

Sometimes i wonder.. Why am i such a loser.. sigh..

Lookin back in life, there ain't much thing i did tt i can look up to and take any pride.. Sigh..

Alan..

Nights off..

Ystdae another army personnel pass away.. A NSF Specialist at BMTC..
He's the 3rd army men to pass away recently...

Almost all the cases involve ppl tt nvr had any medical problems be4.. All this got me wondering.. Wad if.....

Booking in in a few hrs... Probably only bookin out on Sat for the weekend..

Weekend coming..

Alan

...

Well.. Nights off.. So i'm out here.. Till tonight..

Haven done anythin much since i booked in.. Juz spent alot of money on canteen food.. last weekend spent alot of money.. So i'm very very broke..

Book in day (last sun) , i got real pissed wth JK and Wk.. I haven felt so angry for a long long time.. Not gg to tok bout tt...

Thanx to Alvin and TYS, my book-in day was still a great day.. Went for dinner,pool and arcacde wth 2 of them.. Enjoyed orselves alot... My thanx to these 2 pals..

Bookin in in another few hrs time.. Sian...

Looks like coming weekend i'll be stayin home quite alot.. Maybe i shd...
save some money.. spent more tme wth family..
And also, though i've cooled off, i still feel a lil pissed wth the 2 gd frens of mine.. Its not only last sun tt resulted in me being so pissed.. It has been buildin up..

Alan

Feelin so...

Middle of the week and i'm out.. Yeah..

Saw quite alot of familiar faces at SISPEC BSLC..

To Er Ge, glad to see u so motivated to do well.. Wish u all the best.. I'm sure u can achieve the Gold and 9.30.. but do remember to take care of urself.. Cos ultimately, NS is only 2yrs..lol...

Recently i've come to realise, actually, i had been very lucky my whole life.. call it 'tyco' if u like..
But apparently, this luck of mine works on all area except one.. haha.. Shan't go into detail how i came to this conclusion and which area my luck isn't working.. Dun wanna bore ppl do i? Lol..

Weekend comin.. will is be bball or soccer? i dunno... Had both last weekend..

Ok.. Tink i shd go catch some slp..

Cpl Lim wilco out...

PS anyone free anytime can call me chit chat or jio me go out in the evening.. kinda bored..

Juz back frm DW's place... Had a steamboat BBQ wth JK,WK and DW.. Like the last time, we ended gettin too much food..

I told them enuf le... Dun believe me again.. Last time also lidat..
Last time was too many balls... This time too many hotdogs.. Lol...

Anyway, 3 of us shared a cab home to save time.. Anyway tink by the time we walk to interchange,they also no bus le..

Tmrl playin soccer...

Gtg shower, prepare den slp le.. Muz rest mah...

Cpl Alan wilco out...

P.S. Not gg Kbox this weekend.. Looks like i won't get to see my dream girl le.. Sigh..

Sigh

This weekend my mum and sis went overseas.. Plus my bro went for BBQ.. So only left me and dad home.. And he's workin till late.. So i'm on my own.. Juz came back frm bball session juz now.. Played among ourselves... A short session.. Ystdae went to this place, IOI buildin, for pool.. TYS was the one tt intro us there.. Not bad but the music can be better... Left kinda late so JK stayed over at my place last nite.. Chatted alot.. Bout Senghou's love life..

Gg out again soon... Meetin WK for pool at Parkway.. Den gg DW's place for steamboat+BBQ..
JK also joining us there.. TYS might be joining later...

Dunno why recently juz can't get myself to be happy.. Juz feel so sian.. No matter wad i do or try to do i juz feel so.... Sigh.. Can't explain the cause or the feelin at all.. Its juz not happy..

Maybe wad i need is a pay rise.. Lol..

K.. Gtg prepare... Shan't tok more...

Cpl Alan Lim...

P.S. can't wait to see the girl in 'Yuan You Hui' MV again.. tink i'm in love.. lol...

Booked out ystdae.. Booking in tml.. Day off cos i did guard duty ya..

Now my offs and bookouts are unpredictable.. I will nvr noe i bookin out until like 1hr be4..

Anway, JK persuaded me to join him and his cousins go out todae.. So since i had nthing to do at home, i decided to join him lor.. Went PS there eat.. Den walk walk here walk walk there.. wanted to play pool at S'pore Shopping Centre.. But we din wanna wait so long.. So gave up.. Walked all the way to cine.. Den they wanna catch a movie.. Din really feel like watchin.. So i gave DW and WK a call ask if they wanna play pool.. Both say dun feel like.. So end up i left on my own.. Actually, i left thinkin i'll be playin pool... But ended up gg home alone.. Rather sad..
Really wanted to play pool..

Bout to go to slp le.. Gotta wake up real early tmrl.. Probably gg to hav to do guard duty tmrl again... Hoping i can book out on Fri again.. I realise i'm really missin time wth family and frens alot...

Oh and da ge.. I tink the 'radar' malfunction' cannot be cured liao.. Sigh.. Result of SAF...

p.s. i can't wait to see the girl frm the 'Yuan You Hui' MV.. Argh.. maybe i'm in love..lol

Post Tekong 'Radar' Malfunction

Help.. I'm sufferin frm Post Tekong 'Radar' Malfunction...

Juz now went to Hou Interchange to meet up wth wk and Gan for pool.. Suddenly realise Hou seems to hav more cute girls.. There seems to be more attractive girls my 'radar' is picking up..

Anyone got the cure??

Gettin use to new life at SISPEC HQ.. Muz admit, better life than trainee.. But i won't say life is gd..

Oh.. Anyone free on sun go kbox?? Lemme noe..

p.s. It's easy to find cute girls arnd..It's juz the matter of finding the right one and one tt like me.. Tt is not easy...

OOC.. Post out...Nights out...

this week has been very eventful...

First day of ASLC i OOC(out of course) liao..

Reported sick for my chest prob.. end up abnormal ECG.. MO gimme OOC and refer me to National Heart Centre..

Den do sai kang at Bravo Coy for 2 days.. Todae suddenly got posted out late in afternoon to SISPEC HQ.. under Team Trainin Branch..Meanin sai kang at higher level..

Stay in or out dunno yet.. Todae is nights out.. tmrl morning gotta book in le.. Brought back quite alot of stuff le.. Cos even if stay in also won't be needin all the stuff..

Ok.. Not gg to waste this night out typin everythin.. Tt can wait for the weekend..

Coming weekend Senghou will be missin JK and KKK.. hmm.. we'll see wad we can do... Both affiliations shd be free..

p.s. i miss civi life.. everyone out here...

" Raindrops keep fallin on my head, but tt doesn't mean my eyes will sonn be turnin red.. "

wad is wrong man....

Went Beach rd in the afternoon wth JK and TYS den go play pool.. Met up wth KKK and WK.. den headed for National Stadium after dinner.. Me and WK (we had our dinner elsewhere) walked all the way to the stadium... the rest took a cab... chatted alot bout the love lifes our Senghou and affiliation..

Anyway, we left the stadium wth pride after the lions saw off the challenge of the tigers 2-0.. 2 great goals though many others wasted...

Den the prob arised.. we started toking bout wads gg to happen tmrl...Bball or soccer??

This qns resulted in a heated debate among the 5 of us... JK insistin its bball and refuses to turn up if its soccer... WTH!! Everyone tried to convince him soccer instead but he held on firm.. This 'debate' went on for quite awhile.. Nobody was ready to give in...

I mean i'm quite sure i'm being objective by sayin tt soccer's more feasible..I mean anyway alson's team can't make it.. So why on bball this weekend? I noe we said it'll be bball this weekend.. BUt why can't be more flexible? Since alson can't make it, we'll play soccer lah.. Not as if we're not playin bball ever again after this weekend..

For me, i hav passion both for soccer and bball.. I love both sports and i enjoy both.. Why will i say smthing bias in this case? Everyone else in the grp hav a slight preference of one sport over the other.. I dun... I dun understand wads so difficult for a grp of 18+ yrs olds to decide wad sports to play.. Its not first time...

Everytime me and WK try to plan smthing for the grp, there'll sure be 1 or 2 who refuses to accept the plan... There'll surely be someone against any activity... Why can't u ppl juz be a little more understandin and juz try and accomodate each other? I mean we can't possibly please everyone... Can't ur juz give in once in a while.. Gettin tired organisin act for weekends..

Feel like juz givin up.. But i can't.. Cos i noe, if me and WK dun plan, the rest won't as well..

I dunno how ur think.. But for me, i treasure every book out i hav... The time spent wth family..
Frens... I wanna enjoy myself whenever i book out.. Maybe ur think bookouts shd be juz spent slpin away or juz stay home thru out.. Maybe because ur hav nights off,5 days week, stay out...
Only KKK will be able to understand wad i'm toking bout...

Gg out wth frens, family.. All this are things we look forward to when we're nearin bookout day..
And when smthing we look forward to becomes all f*** up, the feelin sux..

Sigh.. very long post.. doubt anyone will bother readin it all but i juz wanna say it out.. Makes me feel better...

Am i wrong? i dunno.. dun wanna think bout it..

Alan signing off wth loneliness.. and the disappointment...

p.s. the girl in jay's yuan you hui MTV is so cute.. can't help thinkin bout her everytime i hear the song..

Poor Me....

BSLC finally came to an end after the 32km march... Super tiring.. Tryin to keep awake the whole journey cos its in the middle of the night... Even my MP3 was useless.. So close to giving up.. But i din... Completed it and i was given my Corporal rank by my PC on the graduation parade this morning.. Not easy earnin this insignia...

Den the sad thing happen... My posting...
My worst fear came true and i'm posted to ASLC... NOooooooooooooo
Anythin but tt i will be happier... Why? All ASLC go Bravo Coy.. Echo Coy no more liao...
Spent a gd half a day there todae.. So different frm Golf... I'm already missin Golf.. Got quite some stuff to get bby this book out... Sian....

This 2days only i book out... No one go out wth me... Sian.. Anyone free wanna go out can jio me ya....

Cpl Lim sadly signing off....