BTT pass le.. FTT on 18/11

Well.. Pass my BTT le.. Quite stress.. I finish the test very fast.. Den after that decide to go thru the test again.. Cos no one walk out yet.. Den juz as i about to press end test, the guy beside me the screen showed in big letters: FAIL.. Wah.. This cause me to hesitate for a few seconds den press end test..
Anyway, i was in time to book for FTT... The counter close at 2030hrs.. My test at 2000hrs.. Lucky me...

Started playing this online game called Maple Story.. I noe abit slow.. Haha.. Thanx to Evelyn and her Bro, i finally got it working.. Haha..

As i eat my supper, i can almost feel myself becoming fatter... Slowly, i'm becoming big,fat and ugly.. Not that i was small, thin and handsome in the first place.. Its not a transformation from gd to bad.. Its from bad to worse... Argh.........

"你心里理想情人是几分 是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分 会给怎样的人"

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Wad a hot day..

Morning made an exception and went for soccer with the rest.. it wasn't exactly a bad session.. not real bad.. u noe wad i mean...

Den at first wanted to go out in the afternoon.. So met online to discuss.. Took quite awhile fro everyone to come online and discuss.. But due to many conflicting preferances and ideas.. There was no conclusion.. And the 'high and mighty one' juz say.. since cannot decide den all stay home.. -_-.. To tink i tot we were on the verge of confirming gg to TYS hse liao.. Ha.. Looks like its maggi for dinner.. not that i minded stayin home..

I mean c'mon lah.. WK only juz came into discussion lor.. and we were juz tellin him our plans.. and discussing it wth him.. And both me and TYS already not much money left for the month liao lor.. still wanna play pool.. TYS already say he left wth $10+ liao lor.. Go his hse of course will be better for him rite..Some ppl juz can't think for others at all..

Thats juz me complaining.. Like WK says, i'm always complaining.. Ha.. dun be bothered..

Since they're all stayin home, dinner looks set to be Maggi KL style..

Anyway, i'm takin up some passive income opportunity liao.. Tryin to earn money..

Tmrl is my BTT day.. feelin a little stress...

"为了抢快乐　搞得不快乐 为什么人总那么傻呢 "

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Wad a downpour...

As i'm typin now, outside is raining like crazy.. Lightning flashes are lighting up the whole night scene.. and the thunder is louder than many many gunshots combined.. To think i was out there juz now.. its like flooding all over the place...

Met up wth Layee to get the Basic Theory Book and the 'TYS' from her.. Den eat dinner there also.. Den end up rain like siao.. Sway... anyway, thanx for the books.. i'll return once my test over k?? as if u'll need them again.. haha

With the books plus my own book in the bag, i decided against using my bag as a 'cover' .. So end up got home kinda drenched.. now shower le.. feel so comfortable.. haha

Oh.. Wk pass his BTT le.. Haha.. ok.. gd for you.. Final TT nxt huh..

Fri tmrl le.. Weekend coming.. Den nxt wk is one day wk.. haha..
Anyone wanna go out or anything jio me ya.. lol

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Overseas Scholarship??

Hmm.. Muz be JK's fault.. Got me all interested in this overseas scholarship thingy.. I actually applied for the account.. They gg to mail me the account details... Seriously, i noe i stand like 0% chance.. But then again, i have nothing to lose rite?? So why not... I mean if i do get it.. *Dream Dream*...

Juz got news tt i got guard duty on the 23rd NOV.. sian.. Guard 3IC again.. Lucky its a weekday..

Angeline jioing all ODACians to go for SIM charity walk on 27 Nov.. Says she wanna make it an informal ODAC gathering.. Well, if any ODACians do get to read this, juz approach her for details if u're interested ya..

Nxt wk got 2 days public holiday siah.. i'm tinking of taking wed and fri leave.. Den can have a long break.. Haha..
Anyway, nxt mon Basic Theory le.. Haven even get the book yet... Guess the last min preparation is still in me.. Haha.. Nvr fail to leave all the studying to the very very last min...

Part of a special song to me:

And as I look at my feet
These thoughts keep going in me...

I’ve been searching for life
Wondering who it could be
I really wish she'd just come for me
Oh... who could it be...

aLan ~ sAn dI

Weekend's coming to an end... Quite a weekend..

JK came back and told us about his experience in Brunei.. Not exactly the best place to go for a holiday huh...
Chatted wth him till quite late on Fri.. In fact we chatted till mornin of Sat.. Seems like he's interested in gg overseas for further education.. I'll quote Mr Bernard Tan in my respond to him " Why not?? " Juz give it a shot.. If u can, den isn't it gd? At the most if u can't make it, u juz stick wth NUS.. Nothing to lose.. All the best to you...
Told him bout some of my prob.. It always gd to be able to talk to someone bout probs.. i hope..

Bball this morning was nice.. except for the fact that caleb din turn up... Again have to quote TYS "Sometimes being hardworking is not enuf.. Luck plays an impt role" .. I played so hard, but still lost 21-20..

Anyway to Alvin (Lim), gd luck.. yah.. u noe wad i mean.. And sorry to both alvin (lim) and yvonne if wad i said caused any misunderstandings...

Oh.. My basic theory test is nxt Mon.. Haha.. Hopefully can pass lah.. Juz agreed to lend my luck to Layee first.. For her final theory.. Den get it back for my own tests.. Not sure if luck is really transferable.. haha.. all the best..
WK also taking basic theory this week.. Need luck can 'loan' from me lor.. haha..

Oh.. Heard from Jianming that my Er Ge got Silver Bayonet in ASLC.. Woow.. Congrats!!!!
See my Er Ge Zhai rite... Haha... Muz treat me and Da Ge leh... joking...

the songs:
牡丹江 南拳妈妈
做自己 同恩
愛我別走 張震獄

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Another happy birthday!!!

Ha.. this time is my own bdae.. lol..
Thanx to all the ppl who remebered my bdae.. Gary and Angeline were probably the earliest when their sms came in at bout 0010hrs.. Alvin and Layee send their wishes early in the morning.. Den it was WK and KKK (from Australia) in the afternoon.. Thanx to all..

The girls (2S04) actually even got me a present.. Haha.. Thanx girls.. It really came as a surprise.. Well, the present is real cute.. I like it.. haha.. Thanx.. Though a soft toy for a 19yr old guy seems abit weird.. but well, haha, i do tink its cute...

Thanx to Evelyn who came to pass me the present even though u got all ur tests and exams coming.. Really appreciate it...

Feelin very tired recently.. So many nice songs..

Oh, Jay's new album releasing on Nov 1.. The single already playin on the radio.. If u haven heard it, u shd go check it out.. not bad..

aLaN ~ sAn dI
1yr older.. not much achieved in this year...

happy bdae yet again..

First of all, happy bdae to one of my best fren for 9yrs and running, alvin.. 19 yrs old already huh..

Well, on off todae, so went out whole day. Morning went to meet KKK at HouMall played arcade. Den we met up wth WK and the 2 Alvins for more arcade and the movie " Goal!" Nice show..
After tt went Alvin's place play game.

I kinda hate myself, hate my life. Is it because of army? I dunno. Why is life so unfair? Why am I born poor, born stupid, born ugly, born with no talents? Does that means in my past life i did many wrong things? Or does it mean I'm suffering this lifetime so i can have a good next life? Sigh... Feel like I'm leading a life controlled by everyone and everything but myself. When can i ever choose my own path?

Juz me complaining again. Ignore me.

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Crazy...

kinda crazy weekend so far...

Fri after the trip to Simlim, i went home only to take a shower and go out again.. Met TYS,DM and Alvin for dinner.. Den we went 'shopping' abit.. After tt i went alvin's hse chiong game till like 0530 (Sat).. went to slp.. den woke up at like 0830 to get home by 0900.. Took a shower and i'm out again.. Met wth KKK, DM, DH, TYS and alvin lim for breakfast...

After breakfast, went home, shower, and i'm out again..To DM's hse play "Kingdom Under Fire".. Stupid KKK pang sei me..
After tt went to meet up wth the same grp of ppl in town go play arcade...Den go walk walk.. Den at first say wanna go chomp chomp for dinner.. end up go the Cartel at Serangoon Garden.. Joined by Fab and WK there... And after dinner it was home, shower and out again.. Watch EPL..

Juz got back...

Oh... Happy Bdae to Wee Keat !! All the best.. esp for ur *kahem...

Sun looks all set to be an uneventful day.. unless anyone got any plans....

*aLaN* ~ sAn dI

Hooray...

Went for my last specialist appointment todae.. And horray.. the specialist finally said the words i've waited for so long... " Your heart should be fine"... Woow... Great sigh of relief.. i almost wanted to shake his hands and all i can say was thank you.. thank you...

I can finally put away all the worries i had.. I juz feel my whole body feel lighter after that... It has been quite a scare.. But like the specialist said, u did fine on the treadmill (echocardio stress test) .. Well.. i won't exactly wanna appear weak and tired during the test.. Not when the medic attending to me looked so cute!!! lol... Well she is cute ok...

The happy me is back.. and bouncing wth life... Woooooow!!!!

Anyway, after the short 'chat' wth the doc, which i waited like 2hrs for my turn, i rush to meet DongHai at Simlim.. sorry lah Dong.. so late.. Wanted to buy a mp3 player.. after some consideration, i decided on the ipod nano.. But guess wad, all the stores in simlim out of stock..

So i'm probably gg to order one online.. its cheaper also.. and i can engrave something on the back of the nano.. cool!!

Oh.. But being cleared also means i've to go for course in Dec.. but actually its so slack.. so why not? stay in not so bad wad..
Save money on transport and meals. Anyway, i stay out now, everyday reach home already 7pm..Den also nothing much to do.. Almost everyone else stay in, where got ppl go out wth...
Come home also go online and see no one online chat wth.. Except a few persons.. sometimes only one person.. So stayin in may not be tt bad mah.. (tryin very hard to convince myself)

tHe sOnGs:
You're Beautiful James Blunt
恋爱ing 五月天
理想情人 杨丞琳

aLaN

Casualty play....

Well.. Back from casualty acting... Went outfield where there was NSmen training gg on.. Real large scale... Then i was wth the MedCoy...

Basically i'm like the main casualty.. When the big shot came to watch the whole 'play', i was already 'prepared' and lying in the ambulance.. So the ambulance juz roared into life and sent me to the tentage.. And there was a big hoo-har as i was being taken down the ambulance into the tent... My supposed injuries: Injured in blast explosion.. Suffered 2nd degree burn on left arm.. Had large lacerations on right chest and top of head... And i was put on drip of course...
The whole thing was finished bout 4 plus..

Den my instructors was kind enuf to drove me to Kranji Camp where we all took a shower be4 they drop me off at Yew Tee MRT as they head back to training.. How nice...

Fri specialist appt will determine whether i gg for course coming Dec...

Heard the coming course is 14 weeks.. i'll become a spec after the course and attain paramedic level 2.. and everyone seems determine to push me be a trainer den come back to where i am...

I have mixed feelings bout all these...

Anyway, pay's in.. So its time i start deciding whether its iriver, ipod nano or smthing else...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

the songs:
练习 刘德华
I Thought She Knew N'Sync
单眼皮 杨丞琳

SORRY!

Big sorry to alvin lim.. ha.. forgot bout ur bdae...
sori lah.. was too sick to think about anything at all last weekend... anyway glad to see u din 'waste' ur bdae away... Happy belated Bdae!!!!

Tmrl i'm gg outfield as casualty.. and i got to help out wth the manual pump while i'm not 'acting' .. seems like a tough day to come...

Reported sick for the first time in this camp... Got my first Att B in my NS life... lol.. Could hav gotten MC outside.. But i chose not to... Got the medication.. The Medical Officer gave me 2 options: either u stay in sick bay here i put u on drip, or u go back to work wth ' light duties' status... obvious which one i chose...

Think my body gettin more and more frail... and think my brain also gg down the slope...

Wanted to help Layee wth her MSN prob juz now.. but guess i not pro enuf... hehe... sori i couldn't help...


some nice songs:
知足 五月天
那女孩对我说 黄义达
可惜不是你 梁静茹
一路向北 周杰倫

May not be new songs.. juz songs i've been listenin to.. check them out if u haven already done so.. my choices.. my tastes... wad touches my heart truly...

aLaN

best inspiration but so wad....

Well.. one of my best inspiration for a song came..its one of the best cos its about myself... BUT.. i'm deciding to stop thinkin bout song-writing.. and i'm of course gg to stop writing.. and all my past few works are more or less gotten rid of.. i'm making myself a little promise.. tt all the song writing will wait till either i can compose songs or i find someone to compose..

This weekend look set to be another boring weekend... WK got duty todae so he's only bookin out tmrl and he gotta book in sun nite.. Poor KKK not booking out at all, he sure can do with a little encouragement (not from me of course)... And JK is probably at the airport now.. flying to brunei soon... Guess i'll be very much on my own.. sigh.. tink i'm slowly gettin use to leadin this kind of 'solo' lifestyle..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

p.s. life was never easy.. being me juz don't help...

Half day...

Well.. Seems tt my 'great talking ability' was in use again as i actually managed to persuade the most regimental warrant (my WSM) to allow me to go on half day off at last min notice.. haha.. and it certainly helps tt i gained his trust enough..

So i'm home by 1330hrs.. Gg my grandma's place wth my brother for dinner.. its been a long time since i visited them.. and since my brother is off from work as well, guess i shd juz drop by..

Well.. song writing ain't easy.. and i tink i sux.. perhaps i shd stop thinkin bout it.. furthermore i need someone to compose music first... argh...

oh.. tys jio go subaru challenge siah... haha.. seriously we dun really stand much chance.. but for the fun of it, why not.. if really lucky lucky win ar... hahaha...

anyone noe wad 暧昧 means?? i mean i dun really have a clear definition wad it means..
nice song though...

aLaN...

p.s. weekend's coming.. sore throat not over yet.. horrible feelin...

Yeah... it's definitely great to be home...

although my R&R quite sian due to the typhoon...
Yupz... just a few more weeks to P.O.P. hopefully can get a break after that...
Maybe then can go out kia kia lo...

But for now... still quite busy... so i guess won't be able to meet up for quite a while yet...

San Di... do let me know the results of the test ya? SMS also can...

Take care!

ChillZ

Er Ge~
FaBBy_Naibaf

A little worried..

Feelin a little worried.. I'm taking the echocardiograpghy stress later.. Gg for my medical appt at National Heart Centre...

Really dislike the irresponsibility of some ppl.. i treat them so gd.. then they dun even make the smallest effort to help me... (talking bout ppl from my camp).. Life is really gettin 'tiring' there..

Anyway, welcome back Er Ge.. Glad to see u're still alive and kicking after 2.5 weeks of training at Taiwan..

Happily ever after?? subjective??
Only one way to be happily ever after... that is to be satisfied with wadeva u are and wadeva u have...

怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够

aLaN

p.s. anyone got any nice songs to recommend??

wad in the world??

Well.. maybe i shd juz stop thinkin bout alot of stuff... juz when i was thinking bout evil in the world, the nxt day Bali was bombed yet again.. but i din wanna think about 'evil' on purpose.. i mean it juz came into my mind...

its sometimes scary how accurate ur gut feelings can get.. i mean, i come to realise, tt my gut feeling, my first thought is always more accurate than the decision when i try to analyse the prob or think logically...

Juz got back from a jog wth JK.. Heart wasn't feelin tt gd.. din manage to run the entire planned route.. but nvrm.. a gd jog still...

Tmrl gettin half day off to go Chinatown do some stuff... Anyone wanna go Chinatown?? haha.. Guess its me and my mp3....

aLaN
My past was a doubt.. i am living in doubt.. my future is also in doubt..

3 pointers rulz...

Played bball this morning.. only 4 of us... so we played 2V2..

And once again, 3 pointers make the difference.. haha.. won the last game (wth jk) almost all on my 3 pointers as i make 4/4.. lol.. alvin lim sure wasn't happy bout tt.. haha...

After bball went for lunch.. den went jk's hse play dynasty warrior..

we concluded Wei Yan ( character from the story) and DW are very alike.. haha..

Oh.. and wk, the BBQ ar, i dun mind lah.. juz tt i dun wanna be involve in the org.. very sian since last time.. get the rest to help u lah..

Alan

throat not feelin well.. can't sing.. can't even speak properly..

Ahem.. ahem...

Keep having to clear my throat.. maybe i'm spoiling my voice.. sore throat like not recovering..

Anyway, anyone noe wad is 'jia ying' (fake voice)? as in wad really does it mean and is it everyone can do it?? and how u do it??
I suspect i always sing in jia ying and i dun hav a original voice.. how??

aLaN

why is this world so 'evil'? backstabbing.. cunning plots.. i'm tired of all these.. who can i trust? wad can i trust?

A little accident..

A little accident on my way home.. The bus skidded on the slippery road after failing to brake at the traffic light.. It hit the side of the road.. The impact was quite big.. Many ppl were thrown off their seats... The 2 most seriously injured was this old indian lady who totally fell off her seat onto the floor.. tink she injured her leg.. but no open wounds.. the other was this old man who also got thrown off his seat completely.. He suffered cuts to his hand and knee.. Seems like quite a deep cut.. he was bleeding profusely and the blood was like drippin onto the floor..

Many kind ppl passed him tissues.. Then the driver called the ambulance.. The rest of the ppl were quite shaken.. i wanted to like get the first aid kit from the front and give tt guy a little bandage.. but from the way he can still shout vulgarities at the driver, i assume he's fine and doesn't need my help..

there was this small boy on board as well.. but luckily his mum was carryin him when the accident happen.. .phew..

tmrl wk jio go register for basic theory..

aLAn..

ps. anyone knows the exact location of the German sausage seller in Chinatown? let me noe.. thanx...

Tennis? Me?

Well.. somehow, jk managed to convince me to go for tennis this mornin..

So i took a ride in tys's car to the tennis court in YCK...

It was an ok session lah.. considerin i'm a first-timer, i did manged to hit some balls.. BUT..
i still dun tink its worth it.. i mean its $10 per hour.. and i'm probably real lousy.. the game probably din last more than 3 strokes be4 breakin the momentum..

Probably gg to stop here for tennis.. tried be4 liao.. so... haha

Den went jk's place chiong Dynasty Warrior... haha.. Liu Bei really cannot make it.. lol...
Xing Cai is cute!!!

Alan
" Life is bittersweet.. But i can't seem to find the sweetness in mine.. Sugar anyone?? "