How can i help???

Juz received a call from one of my best fren ever.. He called from Taiwan.. Seems tt he's devastated.. Shan't explain..

He called trying to look for someone to talk to and perhaps try to lessen his despair.. But i dunno wad to do to help...

I wish i can do smthing.. But i dunno wad to do...

Sometimes i feel like i'm a jynx.. All those close to me seems to meet wth difficulty in their love life.. I wanna help.. But how?? Maybe tts the prob.. I should juz back off...

Alan

BBall !!

Juz got back from a bball session..

6 of us.. JK,DW,TYS,Alvin(Lim),Caleb and me..

Quite an enjoyable session.. Everyone played ok with a few like caleb doing better..

I dunno but i feel like i seem to be dropping in standard.. Though the rest dun think so, i juz have this feelin i'm not as gd (or lousy) as be4.. I'm lousier...

I still sink shots here and there.. But the accuracy has dropped.. 3 pointers made are decreasing.. Guess like wad JK say, i juz need to play more..

Feelin tired.. Ya i'm actually quite shack after this bball session.. Its been a long time since i did any physical activity..

Guess i'm gg to spend the rest of the day resting.. wanted to borrow tian long ba bu frm JK.. End up he already lent it to other fren... Luckily i got my books...

Alan

"Can you see me, here I am
Standing here where I've always been...."

Saturday..

Morning went Kbox wth DW and WK.. Quite some time since we last went Kbox le..
Sang till like 1430 bout there..

Then we signed up as member at this pool place (woodball association i tink) for $1 den we played pool there.. Triple threat our style.. Ended bout 1730.. Den they went for dinner.. I wasn't hungry.. So went home..

Wanted to play bball.. But TYS dun wan den JK got a funeral to attend.. So called off.. So i called up Er Ge and we met at Kovan for dinner.. Chatted bout our NS life.. Yeah... ORD is wad we looking forward to man...

Though kinda late, Da Ge came too.. Den we chatted for awhile more and i decided to head home first.. Well.. They were suppose to be meetin some other frens.. But because of me, they could only join their frens like 2200+.. Hehe.. Sori bout tt man brudders..

Bball tmrl.. Yah.. Hopefully it'll be enjoyable.. I really hope so... Its beem quite some time since i enjoyed myself for a bball or soccer session already.. I dunno if its juz me.. Maybe.. But sometimes, after tolerating ppl for long time, it may juz get too much for me to take and juz explode.. Dun push me to tt limit..

Alan

"Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life..."

Juz a nice song...

Backstreet Boys» Siberia

When you come back
I won't be here
She said and gently pulled me near
If you want to talk you can call
And no it's not my fault

I just smiled and said let go of me
But there's something that I've just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I was drifted in between
Like I was on the outside looking in, yeah yeah
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

Oh yeah, my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though I was sleeping in your bed

'Cause someone else was on your mind
In your head

When I came back she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
If you want to talk give me a call

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too
(When the one that you want doesn't want you)

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too
Siberia, Siberia
When the one you want doesn't want you too

p.s. BSB Never Gone

Wad can he do??

Lim Kiat Loong, 18 , passed out frm BSLC.. Posted to ASLC..



He's 18.. Passed out frm ASLC.. His parents watch proudly as their son march in the passin out parade.. Wears the chevron for him..

He's 19.. Already wearin the khaki beret havin completed the GCC not long ago.. He brings his men out for trainin juz like his instructors use to do..

He's 20.. ORD lor.. Went to University.. He joined the Outdoor Act Club.. He's climbing mountains..

He's 25.. Graduate liao... his parents watch wth tears in their eyes as their son receive his degree..

He's 26.. Got a job.. He's earning 4k a month...

He's 28.. He got himself a car.. Its the Subaru Impreza..

He's 32.. He proposed the girl he's been dating for years.. With tears in her eyes, she agreed..
His white-haired parents has tears of joy in their eyes as they welcome the guests..

He's 35.. His son's borned.. A cute little boy that looks like him when he's young...

He's 38.. He starts a business wth few of his best frens..

He's 40.. Business was fantastic.. They became youngest millionares arnd..

BUT he's only 18.. he's only a OOC...




Alan

Back from SGH..

Well.. Went SGH National Heart Centre todae.. Went there, took ECG again.. Waited in queue for long long time.. See the specialist.. Talk less than 2mins.. And there..I'm outta the place..

Only thing i got, 2 more appointments for checkup.. Basically todae's session was totally useless..
Taking 2 more tests on Aug23 and gg back to see the specialist on Sept9...

Luckily got whole day off.. But nothing to do... Got time also dunno do wad..

Oh..i got a job..

Alan

Down memory lane...

Todae, after booking out, went over to pick my sis up frm sch.. Not smthing unusual.. Ever since i became 0800-1730 its quite often i do tt..

As i was lookin out for my sis among all the kids, the memory of me when i was in Pri Sch came to me.. I was probably like one of them back then, can't wait to tell mum about the newest full marks for spelling.. Or how the boy from the other class got caned.. I guess life back then was much more carefree.. No worries.. Now its different..

Alan

" Imagination is more important than facts. "
Albert Einstein

I'm sick...

Got the flu.. Sore throat.. Feelin feverish... Basically horrible..

Nothing to do.. Juz wanna type something..

Oh to all my Fantasy League pals.. The league is open liao.. Though i'm quite sure no one will select their teams so early.. But there are some changes to the games.. Scoring system also got abit of modifications.. So u guys shd check it out...

Alan...

A*choo...

Mahjong craze...

Juz finish a 2nd round of mahjong in a day... Spent the whole night and early morning playin mahjong at Alvin's hse ystdae.. Alogn wth JK and WK, we headed to his hse straight after finishing our pool session at Parkway..

Came home and slpt the whole afternoon... Den met Alvin,KKK and WK for dinner be4 all headed for my place for another round of Mahjong.. Loser was WK so he treated us to some drinks...

Fri was quite a horrible day for me.. My chest was feelin uncomfortable thru the whole evening.. I was so scared.. So tis tht suddenly came to me: i shd increase my life insurance.. Leave more money to my parents in case anything happen to me...

They say life is short.. So we shd treasure every min of it and make full use of all the time we got.. But since life is short, why bother??

Alan

" i've made my mistakes, got nowhere to run. the nights go on as i'm fadin away..
I juz wanna scream...... How could this happen to me???? "

..

Collected 'A' level cert todae.. Its one of the most awful looking piece of paper i ever gotten.. Damn.. Can't blame anyone or anything.. Its my fault and its only my fault..

Went to library on my own.. Returned the books and borrowed a few.. Den went home walkin in the rain.. Picked up my sis frm sch be4 leavin for HouMall again to meet WK for dinner and pool..

Race to 11.. Lost 11-10.. Really felt damn 'sway'.. Sigh.. Everything seems to be on the downside for me.. Recently i haven been happy at all.. And it doesn't help tt Senghou seems to be gettin more heated discussions everytime we talk bout something.. Esp durin soccer... Seems tt wadeva the gang do, someone will be unhappy..

I feel like all my confidence (however little there was in the first place) are being taken away... My morale is below sea-level no matter wad i am doing..

Alan

" If i lose it all, there'll be nothing left to lose." - is tt how i shd look at my life??

Sizzlinh sizzlers...

Todae bascially played pool and had dinner wth Senghou (- the on duty JK)

Dinner was at Sizzler's.. Quite worth the money..

Den on way back talked so much bout wad we can do and where we can go.. End up?? Go home..

Tmrl soccer.. TYS and WK bought their Total90.. Alvin and KKK already hav them..
Tt leaves me.. Guess i'm sticking wth my Umbro.. Anyway i'm only a utility player..

Alan..

School of Military Medicine...

Posted to SMM.. But the combat medic course only starts on 19th Sept..

For now i'm considered Temp Support Staff.. Meanin stay out and slack..

Went for dinner wth TYS den played bball at TYS's hse there wth him and JK..

Juz got home.. Feelin so broke..

Alan

"Wo yi lu xiang bei..."

School Routine Orders: Posting out....

I'm posted out.. Out of SISPEC.. Out of Tekong..

I'm suppose to be happy.. But.. I'm havin mixed feelings.. Come to tink of it, life hasn't really been tt bad on Trainin Team at SISPEC HQ.. Gonna miss everyone there.. And the durian picking and eatin sessions.. Doubt i'll ever hav tt kind of life again...

Well.. Posted to Nee Soon Camp.. As a Combat Medic..

Kinda stupid.. We're ppl OOC frm ASLC.. Wad makes them tink we're fit to go thru the combat medic course? Anyway, the course haven start and i probably will be doing nthing when i report there tmrl.. Maybe by the time the course starts, i'll be downgraded at the start of it..

Alan

" they walk, we walk
they run, we run
they carry, we carry more
they fall, we cannot fall
cos they need us to save them"
Combat Medic

Nights off..

Addicted to Jay's 'Yi Lu Xiang Bei' (Initial D theme) liao.. Its on replay on my player.. Listenin to it every time i got free time.. Haven seen the lyrics yet.. Dun really noe wad he singing yet.. Its juz the melody and music.. I juz listen to the song go... Nice...

Tmrl bookin out for off till thurs.. Allow us to collect 'A' lvl cert.. Sigh.. 'A' Levels...

Few more hrs to bookin in... Can't wait for payday.. Really really broke...

Alan sadly...

Book in day...

Once again its book in day..

Stayed over at Alvin's hse last nite.. Chiong Underground 2 and PES4.. Slpt at 6 am only to wake up at 8am for bball...

Watched Initial D liao... Quite ok movie wad.. Why some say no gd?

BBall session wasn't as fun.. Maybe its me... Its always me isn't it...

Sometimes i wonder.. Why am i such a loser.. sigh..

Lookin back in life, there ain't much thing i did tt i can look up to and take any pride.. Sigh..

Alan..

Nights off..

Ystdae another army personnel pass away.. A NSF Specialist at BMTC..
He's the 3rd army men to pass away recently...

Almost all the cases involve ppl tt nvr had any medical problems be4.. All this got me wondering.. Wad if.....

Booking in in a few hrs... Probably only bookin out on Sat for the weekend..

Weekend coming..

Alan

...

Well.. Nights off.. So i'm out here.. Till tonight..

Haven done anythin much since i booked in.. Juz spent alot of money on canteen food.. last weekend spent alot of money.. So i'm very very broke..

Book in day (last sun) , i got real pissed wth JK and Wk.. I haven felt so angry for a long long time.. Not gg to tok bout tt...

Thanx to Alvin and TYS, my book-in day was still a great day.. Went for dinner,pool and arcacde wth 2 of them.. Enjoyed orselves alot... My thanx to these 2 pals..

Bookin in in another few hrs time.. Sian...

Looks like coming weekend i'll be stayin home quite alot.. Maybe i shd...
save some money.. spent more tme wth family..
And also, though i've cooled off, i still feel a lil pissed wth the 2 gd frens of mine.. Its not only last sun tt resulted in me being so pissed.. It has been buildin up..

Alan

Feelin so...

Middle of the week and i'm out.. Yeah..

Saw quite alot of familiar faces at SISPEC BSLC..

To Er Ge, glad to see u so motivated to do well.. Wish u all the best.. I'm sure u can achieve the Gold and 9.30.. but do remember to take care of urself.. Cos ultimately, NS is only 2yrs..lol...

Recently i've come to realise, actually, i had been very lucky my whole life.. call it 'tyco' if u like..
But apparently, this luck of mine works on all area except one.. haha.. Shan't go into detail how i came to this conclusion and which area my luck isn't working.. Dun wanna bore ppl do i? Lol..

Weekend comin.. will is be bball or soccer? i dunno... Had both last weekend..

Ok.. Tink i shd go catch some slp..

Cpl Lim wilco out...

PS anyone free anytime can call me chit chat or jio me go out in the evening.. kinda bored..

Juz back frm DW's place... Had a steamboat BBQ wth JK,WK and DW.. Like the last time, we ended gettin too much food..

I told them enuf le... Dun believe me again.. Last time also lidat..
Last time was too many balls... This time too many hotdogs.. Lol...

Anyway, 3 of us shared a cab home to save time.. Anyway tink by the time we walk to interchange,they also no bus le..

Tmrl playin soccer...

Gtg shower, prepare den slp le.. Muz rest mah...

Cpl Alan wilco out...

P.S. Not gg Kbox this weekend.. Looks like i won't get to see my dream girl le.. Sigh..

Sigh

This weekend my mum and sis went overseas.. Plus my bro went for BBQ.. So only left me and dad home.. And he's workin till late.. So i'm on my own.. Juz came back frm bball session juz now.. Played among ourselves... A short session.. Ystdae went to this place, IOI buildin, for pool.. TYS was the one tt intro us there.. Not bad but the music can be better... Left kinda late so JK stayed over at my place last nite.. Chatted alot.. Bout Senghou's love life..

Gg out again soon... Meetin WK for pool at Parkway.. Den gg DW's place for steamboat+BBQ..
JK also joining us there.. TYS might be joining later...

Dunno why recently juz can't get myself to be happy.. Juz feel so sian.. No matter wad i do or try to do i juz feel so.... Sigh.. Can't explain the cause or the feelin at all.. Its juz not happy..

Maybe wad i need is a pay rise.. Lol..

K.. Gtg prepare... Shan't tok more...

Cpl Alan Lim...

P.S. can't wait to see the girl in 'Yuan You Hui' MV again.. tink i'm in love.. lol...

Booked out ystdae.. Booking in tml.. Day off cos i did guard duty ya..

Now my offs and bookouts are unpredictable.. I will nvr noe i bookin out until like 1hr be4..

Anway, JK persuaded me to join him and his cousins go out todae.. So since i had nthing to do at home, i decided to join him lor.. Went PS there eat.. Den walk walk here walk walk there.. wanted to play pool at S'pore Shopping Centre.. But we din wanna wait so long.. So gave up.. Walked all the way to cine.. Den they wanna catch a movie.. Din really feel like watchin.. So i gave DW and WK a call ask if they wanna play pool.. Both say dun feel like.. So end up i left on my own.. Actually, i left thinkin i'll be playin pool... But ended up gg home alone.. Rather sad..
Really wanted to play pool..

Bout to go to slp le.. Gotta wake up real early tmrl.. Probably gg to hav to do guard duty tmrl again... Hoping i can book out on Fri again.. I realise i'm really missin time wth family and frens alot...

Oh and da ge.. I tink the 'radar' malfunction' cannot be cured liao.. Sigh.. Result of SAF...

p.s. i can't wait to see the girl frm the 'Yuan You Hui' MV.. Argh.. maybe i'm in love..lol

Post Tekong 'Radar' Malfunction

Help.. I'm sufferin frm Post Tekong 'Radar' Malfunction...

Juz now went to Hou Interchange to meet up wth wk and Gan for pool.. Suddenly realise Hou seems to hav more cute girls.. There seems to be more attractive girls my 'radar' is picking up..

Anyone got the cure??

Gettin use to new life at SISPEC HQ.. Muz admit, better life than trainee.. But i won't say life is gd..

Oh.. Anyone free on sun go kbox?? Lemme noe..

p.s. It's easy to find cute girls arnd..It's juz the matter of finding the right one and one tt like me.. Tt is not easy...

OOC.. Post out...Nights out...

this week has been very eventful...

First day of ASLC i OOC(out of course) liao..

Reported sick for my chest prob.. end up abnormal ECG.. MO gimme OOC and refer me to National Heart Centre..

Den do sai kang at Bravo Coy for 2 days.. Todae suddenly got posted out late in afternoon to SISPEC HQ.. under Team Trainin Branch..Meanin sai kang at higher level..

Stay in or out dunno yet.. Todae is nights out.. tmrl morning gotta book in le.. Brought back quite alot of stuff le.. Cos even if stay in also won't be needin all the stuff..

Ok.. Not gg to waste this night out typin everythin.. Tt can wait for the weekend..

Coming weekend Senghou will be missin JK and KKK.. hmm.. we'll see wad we can do... Both affiliations shd be free..

p.s. i miss civi life.. everyone out here...

" Raindrops keep fallin on my head, but tt doesn't mean my eyes will sonn be turnin red.. "

wad is wrong man....

Went Beach rd in the afternoon wth JK and TYS den go play pool.. Met up wth KKK and WK.. den headed for National Stadium after dinner.. Me and WK (we had our dinner elsewhere) walked all the way to the stadium... the rest took a cab... chatted alot bout the love lifes our Senghou and affiliation..

Anyway, we left the stadium wth pride after the lions saw off the challenge of the tigers 2-0.. 2 great goals though many others wasted...

Den the prob arised.. we started toking bout wads gg to happen tmrl...Bball or soccer??

This qns resulted in a heated debate among the 5 of us... JK insistin its bball and refuses to turn up if its soccer... WTH!! Everyone tried to convince him soccer instead but he held on firm.. This 'debate' went on for quite awhile.. Nobody was ready to give in...

I mean i'm quite sure i'm being objective by sayin tt soccer's more feasible..I mean anyway alson's team can't make it.. So why on bball this weekend? I noe we said it'll be bball this weekend.. BUt why can't be more flexible? Since alson can't make it, we'll play soccer lah.. Not as if we're not playin bball ever again after this weekend..

For me, i hav passion both for soccer and bball.. I love both sports and i enjoy both.. Why will i say smthing bias in this case? Everyone else in the grp hav a slight preference of one sport over the other.. I dun... I dun understand wads so difficult for a grp of 18+ yrs olds to decide wad sports to play.. Its not first time...

Everytime me and WK try to plan smthing for the grp, there'll sure be 1 or 2 who refuses to accept the plan... There'll surely be someone against any activity... Why can't u ppl juz be a little more understandin and juz try and accomodate each other? I mean we can't possibly please everyone... Can't ur juz give in once in a while.. Gettin tired organisin act for weekends..

Feel like juz givin up.. But i can't.. Cos i noe, if me and WK dun plan, the rest won't as well..

I dunno how ur think.. But for me, i treasure every book out i hav... The time spent wth family..
Frens... I wanna enjoy myself whenever i book out.. Maybe ur think bookouts shd be juz spent slpin away or juz stay home thru out.. Maybe because ur hav nights off,5 days week, stay out...
Only KKK will be able to understand wad i'm toking bout...

Gg out wth frens, family.. All this are things we look forward to when we're nearin bookout day..
And when smthing we look forward to becomes all f*** up, the feelin sux..

Sigh.. very long post.. doubt anyone will bother readin it all but i juz wanna say it out.. Makes me feel better...

Am i wrong? i dunno.. dun wanna think bout it..

Alan signing off wth loneliness.. and the disappointment...

p.s. the girl in jay's yuan you hui MTV is so cute.. can't help thinkin bout her everytime i hear the song..

Poor Me....

BSLC finally came to an end after the 32km march... Super tiring.. Tryin to keep awake the whole journey cos its in the middle of the night... Even my MP3 was useless.. So close to giving up.. But i din... Completed it and i was given my Corporal rank by my PC on the graduation parade this morning.. Not easy earnin this insignia...

Den the sad thing happen... My posting...
My worst fear came true and i'm posted to ASLC... NOooooooooooooo
Anythin but tt i will be happier... Why? All ASLC go Bravo Coy.. Echo Coy no more liao...
Spent a gd half a day there todae.. So different frm Golf... I'm already missin Golf.. Got quite some stuff to get bby this book out... Sian....

This 2days only i book out... No one go out wth me... Sian.. Anyone free wanna go out can jio me ya....

Cpl Lim sadly signing off....

POP...

Half a week more to the end of my BSLC...

Juz completed Nutcracker and 16km route march...

Nutcracker left me wth sandfky bites all over my hands... And heat rash all over my upper body.. Sigh...So itchy and painful..

Went out practically the whole day todae since the moment i booked out till now...
Get my insignia fixed on, buy games, dinner, world combat den pool...
Wad a day...

Tmrl playin soccer...

Gg to try out the new games...

Cpl Lim signing off wth loneliness...

Great Game...

Juz came back frm the bball game.. Our team won 100-83.. Woow...

Started the game real well.. We cruised to a lead of 20pts very quickly.. But as fatigue set in, we begin to play in a 'messy' manner... So our lead was cut very quickly...
There was a point of time they actually took the lead by a point... But we manage to pull ourselves together and get our game back... Soon we were leadin again.. And when we finally hit the last basket to make it 100-83, there was satisfaction and pride in us...

Now as the manager, i'll do an analysis of our players...

Lim De Wei :
Played mainly as the Centre for the team, he managed to grab some crucial rebounds and make a few baskets. Important part of the team's defence.
Ratings: 6.5/10

Caleb Ng:
Team's star Forward. Made his presence felt under the ring wth his rebound prowess. An indispensable player in defence. however he failed to perform up to standard in attack todae.
Ratings: 6/10

Tan Wee Keat:
One of the top performers todae. Was part of the defence tt held the team together in the last part of the game. Impressed many wth his scoring ability in todae's match.
Ratings: 8.0/10

Tan Yong Shen:
Team's top scorer todae i believe. Was the main man to take points frm fast break. Lacking in physical size to mark out opposition's star players. tried his best though.
Ratings: 9.0/10

Koe Kai Kian:
Contributed a part in everything but din really impress todae. Except for his usual hard tackling defence, din do anything exceptional.
Ratings: 6.0/10

Ong Jun Kok:
Another of the team's star player. The all rounder todae. Top few scorers for the team. Dished out the most assist and grab some rebounds along the way. Ghost past the defence of the opposition team quite a few times creating much problems.
Ratings: 8.5/10

Ha.. Notice i din rate myself... Dun tink i shd do tt.. Its up to the rest to rate me ya...

CPL-to-be Lim Signing off...

NOTICE!!

Hey everyone... JK got a blog!!!

Go check it out @ www.nonotonono.blogspot.com

lol... damn cool... really....

Add him as link to ur blogs if possible..

CPL-to-be Lim signing off...

POP soon...

Second last bookout be4 POP le... Juz took IPPT test which i only manage to acheive a pass.. The schedule is juz so pack tt i'm so tired.. I mean my Silver was already so borderline.. Den they hav to tire me out.. Ha.. Maybe i'm juz not deserving of even a Silver.. Weak...

Anyway, it doesn't matter.. Cos a pass is all i need to pass out... Haha...

Juz now went back college to collect the Service Award for ODAC... Apparantly they cock it up and resulted in ODAC havin no one gettin any award... Actually, there's suppose to be 4 of us...
Me,JK,KKK and of course DW as well...So the 4 of us made a trip back to college to pick up our awards... Den we chatted quite abit wth Mr Goh.. Bout NS and Uni mostly.. And also how ODAC is gettin along... End up made TYS waited for hours for us... Felt so bad.. So we took a cab chiong go meet him...

Den we went City Hall... Met up wth WK and had our dinner at Sakae Sushi and den more food at Long John...

Den we headed to CHIJMES to catch the FA cup final... At half time, we decided its too crowded so headed home... On the cab wth Wk, JK and KK, we suddenly decided to play pool and cont'd watchin the match... But KKK din wan to... So 3 of us headed for pool and finished watching the match at the place... Arsenal beat Man Utd after the PK match... Exciting match indeed...

WK headed home... JK now at my place stayin over... Cos he's lazy to walk home... lol...

Tmrl finally gettin a chance to play bball... Hoping to enjoy myself..

Cpl-to-be Lim signing off...

p.s. wad is love??

Wah... Exercise Nutcracker...

Can die... Esp when it rains.

Dig until can die...

Die-ed...

At least still got break...

To San Di: We got 1.5 weeks more to go!
Yay! Lets Jia You!

Take care and have fun~!

FaBBy_Naibaf
Shagged....

Book outs are suppose to be happy...

Well.. This book out seems not to be as happy as others... Reason's simple.. I got guard duty tmrl... Meaning i gotta book in early tmrl morning (0730) unlike the rest (2130).. Sigh.. Tts like more than 12hrs loss...

No choice lah.. Wad i owe muz return.. this guard duty is pay back to a section-mate who did one for me few weeks ago..

Anyway, the past week had been real slack.. So many canteen breaks.. .So many lects... admin time of course was plentiful... The most 'xiong' was probably the IPPT Cat test this morning...
So long since we exercise so we're kinda stiff... But amazingly, for the first time in my NS career, i got a Silver award... Haha.. Of course i'm happy..

Todae the 2 ASLC Coy POP le... Ha.. Really envy them.. End of being trainees... Den saw the silver bayonet as well... So cool... Den saw them book out wth their parents... Bet they are filled with pride as they leave the place...

Went out wth Fab, Wk,TYS, KKK and Alvin Lim juz now... Chatted at Hou Mall Mac for quite awhile.. Den we decided to go CP for dinner... Went to the library and borrowed a book on 6th Sense...den we went to Jack's Place and manage to eat and chat till like 2115.. Den i decided to leave first.. The rest of them still hav the whole of tmrl out here...

Now its pouring out there... Hopefully the rain will stop tmrl mornin when i leave to book in... It can rain(CAT 1) all the way after i book in for all i care...

PTE Lim signing off...

With a little bit of sadness and a little bit of loneliness, I set off for the goal which seems to get further and further away... How long more i can go on? I dunno....

Notice Me-Zetta Bytes

Here's the story of a girl
Living in a lonely world
A hidden note, a secret crush
A little boy who talks too much
Well I'm standing in the crowd
And when you smile I check you out
But you don't even know my name
You're too busy playing games

IIIIIIIIIIII want you to know
If you lose your way, I won't let you go

If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes
Will you notice me?
If I bite my lip, if I say hello
Will you notice me?
What's it gonna take for you to see?
To get you to notice me?
(To get you to notice me?)

You got your head up in the clouds
Tell me when you're coming down
No I don't want to sink your ship
It's not about the scholarship
And all the friends that follow you
That tell you things that just ain't true
I'm the girl you never see
I'm the one you really need

And ooooooooooooooh don't get me wrong
You better make your move before that moments gone

Tell me
If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes
Will you notice me?
If I bite my lip, if I say hello
Will you notice me?
What's it gonna take for you to see?
To get you to notice me?

I'm not like the rest
I just don't care if your the best
You see its
All the same to me
You'd just be who you are to me
Its all the same to meeeeeeeeeee

Ooooooooooooooh don't get me wrong
You better make your move before that moments gone

Tell meIf I cut my hair, if I change my clothes
Will you notice me?
If I bite my lip, if I say hello
Will you notice me?
If I cut my hair, if I change my clothes
Will you notice me?
If I bite my lip, if I say hello
Will you notice me?
I want you to notice me
I'll get you to notice me
I'll get you to notice me
(I'll get you to notice me)

wad a weekend...

Sat nite stayed over at alvin's place wth JK for EPL game... Saw Chelsea lift the trophy... Oh well..

Den Sun mornin woke up den chiong to play soccer wth Senghou + TYS... After tt as usual had lunch at HP..Decided to watch 'Coach Carter'.. So we got the tics at the AXS machine.. den everyone went home to slack awhile.. Met at TM later where we had dinner at pizza hut..

Anyway the show is nice.. At least to me.. Inspiring and motivating.. Really feel like playin bball man... Went home wth JK.. Chatted alot bout our lives, past present and future.. We even alighted at a nearby coffeeshop to sit down to chat... Long time no chat wth this best fren of mine already...

Sad to say, he bookin in tmrl morning.. If not sure play bball... So gg kbox instead...

So as u can see my expenses is real high.. Basically i'm broke till the nxt pay day...

PTE Lim signing off...

'Wad is love?'....

Book out.... Off-in-lieu...

I'm out for the weekend...

Went for dinner at Kenny Rogers wth my section mates juz now...
Had a gd chat wth them... Everyone's sad we're gg to lose bout 2 guys to OCS.. But there's nthing we can do bout it... and till now we dunno who are the ppl leaving us...

Seems tt my section got this guy tt already has his own business and its doing well... He's earnin money w/o having to do anything... And when he do something, his profit goes up to a 5 digit sum a month... And it has stirred the business side of me awake again... Gg to try to learn all bout it...

Oh er ge ar.. Dun worry bout SOC, i'm sure u'll pass it sooner or later... Juz do ur best...

Tts all for now... A little tired...

PTE Lim signing off...

"Rush to wait, Wait to rush" isn't it stupid....

Yo~

I haven't gone to Chevrons yet lehz. Supposed to go next week.

Congrats on passing your SOC.
I haven't pass mine yet. Liew.
How sia...

Have funz.

FaBBy_Naibaf

Heehee... I book out le...

Haha.. My Coy actually arranged for us to go to Chevron todae... So we got to book out todae afternoon.. But tmrl mornin we'll hav to book in to clean bunk and rifle le... But better than dun hav lah...

Chevron seems like a great place.. Wth facilities like swimming pool, pool tables, bowling alleys, cyber cafe, gyms, chalet... and many more.. further more, we frm SISPEC are automatically members... So we get to enjoy all facilities at lower prices... There's only one prob...
Chevron is at Jurong East... Lol... it'll take ages for me to travel there...

So tmrl i'll be booking in liao... But i'll be able to book out in the afternoon tmrl for the long weekend break... a well-deserved one...

Had many interesting activities this week.. Repelling of the wall... AOC (additional obstacle course) and COC (confidence obstacles course) as well...
But i actually got rope burn for the first time in my life... So now my hands got blisters all over...

Ok.. I shd go and get some rest for the weekend...

PTE Lim signing off....

"They say tt in the army, the girls are very nice... U ask for Cindy Crawford, they give u Frankenstein...."

Wad a week....

Start of the week had my SOC re-test.. This time round, i improved by over a min to finally achieve a pass... Yeah... So happy...

Den had SCK test... Last min studyin as usual...

Den it was 4 days outfield of summary exercise.. Mission after mission we embark on... Den the worst thing happen to me... My rifle kanna stun on the last nite... So had to do guard duty.. tts why i todae den boo k out... Sian...

But also happy cos NTU has juz sent me a letter, stating they had accepted me into the Engineering Course... Cool... Now i'll juz wait for NUS reply be4 i confirm my place wth NTU....

Tts all for now... Bookin in tonight... Coming week shd be much more fun and relac...

p.s guard duty is very relac...

PTE Lim Signin off

Sian...

The time has come again for me to book in... Yes its sun... Book in day...

Mornin went for soccer session wth Senghou -kkk +TYS... Had fun lah.. But very tired... Den went HP makan be gg NTUC to go shopping for snacks to bring in... But seriously, i doubt i'll eat much... Not much free time in bunk coming week... Wth all the outfield exercises and the 3D2N camp... My whole body muscles pain lor..

KKK seems very stress at OCS... Muz relac siah pal.. I'm sure he'll pull thru and pass out as a 2Lt...

Rest of Senghou quite sian also... Muz congrat JK on becoming the Asst Chief Clerk...
And congrats to WK for OOT.. lol

Er Ge ar, muz take care of urself siah... I can see u're rather stress up wth SISPEC life like me...
Sigh.. Lets hope we get out of this shit asap...

Da Ge seems to be having happier times... Jia you wor Da Ge... Combat engineer...

Tts all for now... Morale below sea level... No motivation, no spirit, no life...
Gg to book in very much early todae... Sadly gg to eat my early dinner... End of my less than 24hrs bookout coming to an end...

Civilian life is so great... I juz can't wait to ORD...

a very SAD Pte Lim signing off...

Feelin down? juz compare urself to me and u'll feel much much better... trust me....

Chiong Sua....

One week of outfield has passed... Chiong sua almost everyday... But guess wad, its not the worse yet... Nxt week is gg to be more chiong sua... Sigh...

I've been thinking this week....

I always tht my mental strength is stronger than my physical strength... But i realise i'm weak in both...

I always tht my EQ was better than my IQ... Den i conclude tt both are equally pathetic...

Dunno why i feel this way... But i juz feel this way...

Anyway, it has been 2 weeks w/o any relapse small or big for me... Phew...

Soon term 1 of BSLC gg to end... Say fast not fast say slow not slow...

Had a great supper wth JK,WK,KKK,TYS and DM at Chomp Chomp... Den went Cafe Cartel to get a drink and watch soccer...

Tmrl morning playing soccer finally.. After so long... But sadly tmrl early book in... Sigh...
Late bookout still early book in... Sian...

Oh, heard tt er ge is injured... Muz take care yah... We muz chiong thru this together...

And Da Ge, hope u havin a gd time( i noe this is impossible) at the Sch of Combat Engineer...

To everyone, enjoy life... While u can.. Remember, happy times dun come all the time... So always enjoy it while u can, be4 u miss it...

Pte Lim signing off....

With pride we lead....

Kinda tired after one week of hectic activities... Wanna relax this weekend...
Gypsy 1 and 2 was really interesting... Provided u dun 'holan'...

Went back to SRJC ystdae nite... Chiong there immediately after book out...
ODAC was havin their camp... Met up wth my brudders and the OCT KKK.. haha.. Senghou was there too... So chatted alot... So much to talk bout, everyone havin a totally different experience in their NS life... Navy, clerk, driver, OCT and of course SISPEC trainee..

Got home only bout 2am.. On my way back bought cup noodles eat.. if not die of hunger le..
Now gg to format my com...

Pte Lim signing off...

'Sometimes i run... sometimes i hide'....

What do i do man....

Thanx er ge for concern... Dun worry... Life is one of the few things i actually rank above money... I'll be sure to hav the life to enjoy the money...

Anyway, last week had 3 SOC lessons... And during the 2nd SOC, i had a severe relapse... This is really gettin worrying... The intensity and frequency of attacks seems to hav increased... Actually i decided during the week to see a doc todae... But i changed my mind... Decided to try and pass thru BSLC and ASLC be4 seein one...

I dun believe it but i actually hav to study in SISPEC... Took a few tests last week.. TSR, BN theory... Nxt week got much more coming... BN practical, SAW TH, claymore mine TH, Signals theory and prac... Stress huh... To add on to tt, i'm having my final SOC test...

SISPEC life really very packed..But there certainly is more admin time than in BMT...

And my bunk got a few seriouly love-sick ppl... and i tink they need some serious talking to man...

2 weeks hav passed... Adapted? i dunno...

Pte Lim... Signing off...

I'm scared... Yes i am...

Juz got back frm a session of soccer wth the Senghou and affiliation... Feelin abit tired.. Probably cos din get much slp last nite... Stayed over at Alvin (Gan) 's hse ystdae wth JK... Watched abit of the Qualifiers, played PES and played some chess wth JK.. Den this mornin went for soccer straight...

Juz now on way back suffered another attack of the chest pain... It wasn't a severe one... But i'm worried.. Or afraid... It has been so many yrs... When i was young i always told myself: dun worry, when i grow up it'll go away... But now... Its far frm being gone... In fact, its seems to hav gotten worse... I'm really worried... I can't afford to be not medically fit.. I'll lose my place in SISPEC.. Den get downgraded.. I'll lose my chance to earn more in my 2 yrs... My family needs the money.. I know tt my life is more impt.. But i guess if i can survive so many yrs, why not another few more months... Maybe i'll go for a check up after i pass out frm SISPEC...

I dunno how much longer i can last... But i'll do nothing but my best... Anyway i've nvr experience an attack durin physical trainin or activity... So i hope it won't hinder my participation in the activities... Hopefully...

Private Lim... signing off...

SISPEC...

SISPEC life not easy ar..

Do so much shit and end of the day only get 3rd SGT.. Pay only = to wad the ppl in OCS gettin now as trainee... Wth..

Anyway, had SOC on the first morning there.. Den had 2 Endurance Training already.. 4km and 5km.. Had our first few lessons in Basic Navigation and learnt bout the M203 grenade launcher..

Mon gg to hav TH test for M203.. den gg to hav 3 SOC lessons nxt week.. Stress..

And over there the ppl all much fitter than i am.. Juz look at the chin-up regimes be4 meals..
Everyone doing like 10... Me can barely manage 6.. wtf.. Sigh... Den hav to do so many extra push-ups...

And the worse is i suffered an attack of my chest pain... It wasn't a severe one... But the pain was enuf to stop me frm doing anything... This brings back memory of how the previous attack tt happened durin BMT.. Back then it was severe enuf to make me fall out frm the activity...
I dunno... Maybe i shd juz see a specialist bout it... Sigh.. But wad if the doc really find smthing wrong wth me and.........

Anyway, got lotsa stuff to prepare for this first book-out... Many things to buy..
Tml playin bball..

Private Lim...

Back to Tekong...

Tmrl i'm reportin back to the 'holiday island'...
Already planned to share cab wth JR le... My bag is like pack to the max...
Dun even hav space for civi shoes le...
So i guess i gotta book out in smart4 this weekend..

Hopefully will get to enjoy my SISPEC days...

To all the guys reportin to their new unit tmrl, gd luck ppl... All the best....
If u're readin this and u're not a guy reportin to ur new unit tmrl, lemme noe who u r.. Haha...

PTE Lim signing off.....

POsting out le...

So the postings are out todae...

Guess wad.. I'm gg back to Tekong.. To be a trainee again... Last time pass out as PTE..
Now the course i'm gg is gg to take 4-5 months.. And i'll pass out as a 3rd Sgt..
A little disappointed ya.. Why din they post me to be the police inspector? lol...

Anyway so i'm gg to SISPEC.. Along wth Er Ge.. Da Ge at this point of time is probably still in Wonder wonder LAnd... lol..

Congrats to KKK and DM gettin into OCS... Gd luck to them... Fear 7-11 guys...

Todae suppose to hav BBQ but seems like its gone.. So shd be gg to Marina Bay..

Senghou POstings:
Wk gg to Navy as System Operator...
KKK did us proud to get into OCS...
JK as expected end up in Bedok Camp as a Clerk (stay in)
Me go SISPEC lor...
Alvin still unknown.. so update nxt time...

SO i'm gg back to tekong on Mon...

Sian to the max....

Pte Lim signing off...

CAn't decide...

I really having prob decidin wad courses to choose... Someone help me??
Sociology? Psychology? Engineering? Communication studies?

I dunno...

The BBQ on fri seems abit rush... BUt hopefully the main organiser ,WK, will POP soon and do his job...

Gotta go for stupid lion's trail todae... WAste time...
Den tmrl got platoon BBQ.. at sentosa.. I already giving the chalet a miss so muz turn up at least for BBQ...

Still coughing real bad... Someone save me........

PTE Lim coughing off....

Yo~

Just about a few days more before we know our army posting results le...

Just wanna wish all the best. Hope my brudders get to the army posting of their choice. If not then... hope not to get back to Tekong. BleahZ.

Anyway... whens the next LAN session? Need to LAN as much as possible before going back...

FaBBy_Naibaf
Warcraft III?

Sigh...

Todae went NUS Open House.. Only attended the talk for Engineering... Probably cos its the only possible choice for me in NUS.. It seems tt engineering is not as bad as i tht.. Its actually quite interestin... So i'm gg to apply for NUS Engineering.. Probably take common engineering for the first year... Den i'll decide which discipline to go for...

I've been thinking.. I don't require myself to be very rich or very successful in the future or now.. I only require to be like any other average person.. Juz hav enuf salary in the future to be able to lead a normal life... But it seems tt maybe even this bare minimum i require of myself i may not be able to achieve...

Am i a failure in life? I dunno... I can't ans this qns...

Now i'm gg to take things as they come... I've lost most, if not all, of my already very little confidence of myself, my abilities...

PTE Lim coughing off......

P.S Happy bdae to KKK...Wish u all the best...

POP liao..

Well well well... finally.. POP le... NOw i'm a Private...
Sad to say, todae i still hav to book in to tekong...
All HQ'a fault... Last min change in instruction and now all those who fail SOC hav to go for the re-SOC tmrl.. So i gotta book in tonight...

Its really stupid.. This was exactly wad i was tryin to escape when i went ahead wth the SOC even wth a fever... I din wanna come back during block leave... because we were only told probably only those who din take only had to come back... And now even those who fail hav to...
bull shit man...

The last week was rather horrible for me really... Wth my fever comin on and off... I din noe how much longer i could last... The 24km route march sure tested my determination to its limits...
Luckily there was something call Panadol... I took it at the 12km mark... And it help to reduce my fever at least until i completed the whole thing...

At least now my fever is gone for gd... I hope...
But i've got a real bad cough and flu... Probably caught a cold...
I dunno why i hav this mindset, juz to get the SOC over and done wth and i probably won't be bother at all bout my timing...

a very sickly PTE Lim signing off...

Bookin in soon...

Todae played soccer in the mornin and enjoyed myself alot...
We beat a grp of arrogant people...

Went Borders todae and bought a book... Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell...
Haha.. Yup.. I bought a book to read...

Anyway, the nxt time i book out it'll be the start if my block leave le...

So cya ppl soon...

Private Lim - to -be signin off...

Disappointed?? I dunno...

Ok.. so i got back my results... Its not gd...
B C C C... in fact its pretty lousy... Disappointed? of course...
But when i think bout it, why shd i?
Ppl work so hard to do well... Can i tell myself i had tried my best? Or even worked hard?
I wouldn't dare to swear bout tt... So wad gives me the right to be disappointed?
Sigh...

Met some frens tt i haven seen for long long time.. Many of my frens did relatively well.. Congrats to them.. Hope everyone will hav great future...

For me... Haven decided wad uni or course yet... Now it seems my results had made my job easier wth limited choices... Hopefully can get into a university...

Recruit Lim signing off sadly....

Disappointed?? I dunno...

Ok.. so i got back my results... Its not gd...
B C C C... in fact its pretty lousy... Disappointed? of course...
But when i think bout it, why shd i?
Ppl work so hard to do well... Can i tell myself i had tried my best? Or even worked hard?
I wouldn't dare to swear bout tt... So wad gives me the right to be disappointed?
Sigh...

Met some frens tt i haven seen for long long time.. Many of my frens did relatively well.. Congrats to them.. Hope everyone will hav great future...

For me... Haven decided wad uni or course yet... Now it seems my results had made my job easier wth limited choices... Hopefully can get into a university...

Recruit Lim signing off sadly....

Anxious...

This is my last book out be4 POP liao...
And wad a memorable one it is.. Book out to get 'A's results...

So this is it.. The moment of truth...
How i'll fare? i dunno... In bout 1.5hrs time i'll find out...
i noe being worried or anxious is useless.. But still...

And this fever of mine is not helping... It started few days ago but medication did not help to make me feel any better... Argh.. Sigh...

But one gd news is tt i passed my IPPT already... Missed silver by tt little bit... but i'm satisfied lah...

This period sure is a little stress... Gettin back 'A's results, gettin my posting soon too...

Gd luck everyone to ur results... Hope u all will score wad ur aimed for...

Private Lim-to-be signing off...

Yo~

HeyoZ... wish you all the best for your IPPT. Take care brudder...

As for me..
Only left with SOC and 16-24km route march le...
After that is relac le...

Oh yeah... San Di... I saw your company at live range...
My company just arrived when yours left... haha
Then Hawk company came when i left... interesting...

Let's give whatever we have left our best yup?

FaBBy_Naibaf

WSO no more..Range over..

Yup.. WSO no more le...
And range over le.. BMT almost over le... Less than 2 weeks...
All my concentration will be on IPPT...
Hope to get silver by the last IPPT...
Nthing much to say...

Recruit Lim signing off...

I'm back...

Hey ppl.. I'm back... Monitor fixed..
Though resoluion abit funny.. But can't be bothered.. Anyway i won't be using it much...

Took and failed another IPPT last week.. Sigh.. I guess i'm really TCMI...
2.4 for once below 11min..

BTP all over.. Mon to Wed having live range le.. Wish me luck ppl...

HeY HeYz...

Da Ge and San Di go for Sit test le...

Now my turn le... Must wish me all the best ya?

Anyway...

Da Ge! WaNNa wish You A gReAt BiRthDaY!
OnE MoRe YeAr oLdEr AlReaDy!
All the Best For YoUr 'A' LeveL reSultS!
All the bEst for Your NS LiFe! HoPe yOu EnjOy it to ThE MaX!
AnD... BeSt WisHeS iN yOur FuTuRe EnDeVouRs!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

To mY swordsmen brudders! WaNNa wisH aLL the VerY BeST!

FaBBy_Naibaf
Rec Fabian Signing Off <-- (Yes... My uniform reads Fabian... Not W Z Hia)

Cya guys for the time being...

Well ppl... Sad to say my monitor juz burnt off on CNY eve... Few mins be4 12midnight...

So' i'm gg to be away frm the internet world for quite some time...

Happy new year ppl

Recruit Lim signing off...

p.s dun miss me...

Chinese New Year...

Booked out real early todae.. 0945 fastcraft...
gg to hav a real long 5 day break this time due to CNY...
Yeah...

So
Happy Chinese New Year ppl...
Enjoy urself...

Recruit Lim Signing Off....

SIT test....

oh did i mention anything bout SIT test?
I screwed it up....

Oh and after gg for the Airforce 2nd talk, i'm more and more interested in the vocation of WSO... be it C3 or ADA...
But my main 2 concern will be results (A levels) and qualification for OCS...
Once these 2 are settled, i probably will sign on as a WSO... Take up LSA...
And life will be happily ever after i guess...

Wish me luck... Lots of it...

Saddening news....

Ystdae nite, got to noe frm DM tt our chinese teacher Mdm Chin had passed away... Rather shocking news... So todae, after bookin out at 1815hrs, took a cab home, shower, eat dinner and i'm off to meet the guys... Met up wth Fab,TYS,DM,DH and HX at Potong Pasir.. Den we took 2 cabs to the funeral parlour... Stayed for bout half an hour... Den HX left... THe rest of us met up wth JK at Serangoon Interchange... Den we went to eat supper at one of the coffeeshop there.. Chatted all bout NS life... Den share cab wth JK home... Total todae took 3 times cab lor...
Really spending too much...

Tmrl morning wanted to play bball but WK still in camp... Den JK not free... So can't play le...

Bookin in in 18hrs...

After tt will be bookin out on Tue for the long CNY break...

Yeah...

Recruit Lim signing off....

Sian...sian...

Few more hrs be4 i muz leave my sweet home for a 'faraway' island called 'Tekong' ...
Where ppl train to be a 'chao' recruit...lol

So due to smthing called boredom, i'm bloggin again...

Everyone else is in field camp ya.. So can't arrange anything... wanna go shoppin for CNY clothes also no time cos later need to book in le.. So rot at home lor... Sigh...

Gg for SIT test nxt 3 days... Outfield again... Sian... Combat rations... Argh...

The nxt time everyone gets to book out at the same time will be CNY liao lor..

Was really deprive of music last week.. So now listening to many songs to make up for it..
David Tao and Lee Hom's new album both got liao.. Juz got Mayday's album...
Earlier 2 is buy China import one so cheaper.. Mayday album is burn one..
So saved alot of $$.. But due to my high expenses on food and fun, total din really save any $$

Actually the one album i wanna get is Jay's Incomparable Concert Album.. But the cheapest i can find is $23.90 lor... So tt gotta wait till my nxt payday...

Recruit Lim signing off...

Shoppin...

Todae morning stayed home to help pack my room... Cleared the unwanted notes...
As i was packing my room, came across some stuff tt brought back fond memories...
Like Victoriana, year books....

Afternoon went town wth DW and WK.. PLayed our fav World Combat... Den played pool for awhile be4 WK has to leave for reunion dinner.. So the 2 of us went arnd shopping for CNY clothes... Went to quite many places.. Joined by Weisong later also... But went back empty-handed except for the David Tao CD i bought for $8.90.. Bought supper for my family..
So basically todae i achieved nthing but spent alot of $$...

Sun book in den Mon-Wed is SIT test le... Wish me luck ppl...

Juz wanna mention 2 particular songs tt i really really like esp recently...
Jue Jiang by Mayday and I Dream by Taufik...
They are really motivating songs... Empower my mind and soul everytime i listen to them...
Esp during NS period...

Recruit Lim signing off....

p.s. i lost my cap at PS todae... So sad...

Field Camp over....

Finally..the 7 days field camp is over...
I muz say its a very memorable experience tt i probably will nvr forget in my whole life...
And i'm proud to say tt i survived the whole camp w/o reporting sick or falling out...
Seriously, my sore throat, cough and flu was so bad, i could hav juz reported sick and fall out, and brought myself away frm all the misery i was in... But i held on...
I kept my promise to da ge... We said we'll nvr rs (report sick) unless we drop dead...
Even when almost the whole of my section has all rs be4 already, i din...
The irony is, i'm the report sick i/c... lol

Muz say learnt alot of stuff for the past 7 days... Can't wait to exchange field camp stories wth the rest.. I'm one of the few who started the field camp early.. So the rest are still probably in the midst of their field camp while i'm typing this...

Met up wth Da Ge todae after book out and had dinner at pasir ris wth him... Chatted so much bout our field camp... Den shared a cab home wth him...

Tryin to find ppl go shopping for CNY clothes this weekend... Anyone interested?

Oh my SIT test is nxt week mon to wed... So its kinda 'xiong' for us... I'm gg to juz do my best to cope..

Recruit Lim signing off...

Ok... so i'm back from my confinement. Honeymoon period over le...

Next time book in got tekan session le... crap...

wah... my whole platoon all damn fit one lor... all damn pro... only a few guys like me... very jialat...

i'm beginning to think my FBO is about half my weight already sia... damn heavy...

But i try my best lo...

Speaking of field camp, im going to have mine soon after i book in. Its another 2 weeks for me again... Sianz.

Speaking of which. I'm having second thoughts of trying to get to command school already. Maybe military life not my type of lifestyle. Haha... wad the heck. Want to get to university fast...

So brudders. When you see all of this, i'd probably be back in tekong again.

Wish you guys all the best!

FaBBy_Naibaf

Field Camp coming....

Its fri now..

I book out ystdae.. Why? Cos its hari raya haji... But i'm bookin in again this evening... And my field camp starts tmrl... Stress...

Booked out late ystdae... So in other to meet the guys, i chiong home in a cab... Reach home shower, took a light dinner den leave le... Waited for TYS at Kovan for quite awhile be4 gg over to Serangoon Gardens to meet up wth DM and WX... We had a long chat at coffeebean.. Chatted bout our NS life... How our coy instructors and our activities are like... Also talked bout some 'strange' happenings and rumours... Got abit freaked out ya all of us...

After tt shared a cab home wth DM and WX... In short, spent alot of money ya...

Later this mornin playin bball wth JK and DW again... I noe i need to rest... But i juz wanna play..

JK enlisting this sat as my field camp start le.. Gd luck there pal..

Recruit Lim Signing off....

"To lead, excel and overcome until we ORD... we are from Mohawk 4 , mohawk company..."

Out Again...

BMT officially started for us last week...
Very hectic schedule i muz say... no more free time to slack...
Many 'tekan' sessions now...

Oh i applied for WSO (weapon specialist officer) vocation... So i got to book out on fri to do the test... Its not as if i confirm gg to sign on and join the Air Force... Its juz tt this is smthing i'm still considering and i wanna keep this option open first.. So taking the test is actually gd... Whether ornot i wanna join really i can always decide later...

My section really very 'infected' liao... On the last day be4 book out, we actually only had 2/12 attd for activities.. the rest either are already excused by medical officer, or are reportin to the medical officer, or had already gone home cos they were too ill... So 2 of us were the only ppl still 'fighting fit' as they call it... Maybe we shd disinfect our bunk...

Played pool wth WK todae at Hou Plaza.. Basically we couldn't get more ppl cos almost everyone else is still in tekong.. And DW refuse to come here to play.. After tt, we had dinner at CP be4 i went his place to watch the Liverpool Man Utd game.. played some games, den had to leave in case i miss the last bus...

Field camp coming soon liao... Beginnin to worry a little for it... Heard much bout how bad it can get... So i'm hoping for the best and preparing for the worst... Let's hope i can pass thru it... all 7 days..

Booking in later todae liao... So fast... Its like i haven really enjoy the book out and its over...

Guess i juz hav to get use to this kind of lifestyle...

Recruit Lim signin off...

Nil Sine Labore...

I'm still alive...

Booking in real soon le...

Met wth alot of frens last wk... At tekong...

BMT startin this week le.. Stress...

Gtg make dummy grenade le... Till nxt weekend...

Recruit Lim signing off...

"If i can't, den i muz..."

Booking in in a few more hours....

So fast.. 4 days of break over le... The rain really dampen my spirit siah.. Wanna play soccer or bball also cannot.. So sian...
So i'm booking in in a few more hrs time liao... Back to tekong... Back to training... Seems to hav caught a cold.. Slight one... Hopefully i'll recover fully real soon... If not i'm in for some tough time....
Thanks to this long break of 4 days, i'm only gg to be able to book out on sat this coming weekend... Sian...
But this time i book out, doubt there'll be any plan for anything much... Wth many of the guys enlisting this week, this weekend many will be remaining in tekong.. Haha.. 2 weeks of 'adjustment' mah... So can't go home.. But the Senghou Gang will still hav at least 3 ppl still out here, wth me and wk bookin out and jk yet to enlist... And our affiliations, DW still yet to enlist but tys will be in tekong le... And of course my da ge will also be out but er ge in tekong..

So can say to hav bout half of my frens stayin in tekong for this coming weekend... maybe i can take this chance to really hav a gd rest... slping thru the whole weekend...

Jia you my frens... Tekong is not as tough as it sounds to be... But its not as slack as it seems to be too...

Bu yao qing yi fang qi... Fou zhe dui bu qi zi ji.....

New Year....

So its 2005.. Din even realise it...
Booking in later tonight le... So fast...

Juz realise i forgot to get another pair of garters... So screwed...

Nthing much to say.. Feelin a little sad... Dunno why...

i need smthing to perk my life up... Its so boring...

New year resolutions?? I dun really noe wad they're for and wad they are...

Now i only got 2 things i worry bout... 'A's and NS... rest of things i'm gg to put them aside first...

To those enlisting soon, gd luck...

To those already in there... gd luck too...

Recruit Lim...Signing off...

NeW YeAr AlReAdy...

Have a Great New Year Everyone...

And!

Best WishEs to mY dear Brudders!

I'm coming to Tekong SooN!!~~

FaBBy_Naibaf

BMTC...

2nd time i book out le.. This time book out frm 29 Dec 04 till 2 Jan 05 den book in... So a rather long break ya... Booked out late so din do much.. Juz went TM makan wth my section mates.. Den went home le... Den ystdae went jk's hse played PS2 wth him and WK.. Den we went Kbox wth KKK and TYS... Started wth 5 ppl.. Ended wth 4.. In b/w change ppl a few times.. Haha.. Fab came later... JK gotta leave first.. TYS left den came back...

After tt went CP for dinner at Pizza Hut wth Fab, Amos, Von, TYS, WK, and KKK... Chatted alot bout NS life... Esp wth Amos.. Cos he also enlisted alreadi.. He's in Raven Coy while i'm in Mohawk Coy.. Found out our lifes pretty much the same.. WK more diff...

Idea came to me to do some analysis of the Companies (Coy) in BMTC ....Not doing for every Coy... Only on those i had gotten info on.... Juz to let those who haven enlisted to know more bout the ppl they're gg to meet and some of the possible coy they may end up in...

Sch 1:
Charlie Coy (unoccupied) ..... not so 'clean' coy
Delta Coy (occupied) ..... super slack warrant officer coy
Foxtrot Coy (unoccupied) ..... one of the most 'xiong' coy in sch1

Sch 2:
Leopard Coy (unoccupied) ..... i infer this coy to be rather slack too
Mohawk Coy (occupied) ..... one of the most 'xiong' coy in sch2
Ninja Coy (occupied) ..... rather ave coy i would say wth nthing special
Orion Coy (occupied) ..... another slack coy
Raven Coy (occupied) ..... 'sai kang' coy
Taurus Coy (unoccupied) ..... place for female recruits
Viper Coy (unoccupied) ..... another 'xiong' coy
Whisky Coy (occupied) ..... one of the most slack coy


tts bout all i've gotten so far... will update if i get to noe more later on...

Signing off....
Recruit Lim

p.s. wad a tragedy...only knew bout it when i booked out 2 days ago...

2nd day of book out...

Ystdae morning played soccer wth Senghou Gang and affiliations... Den went HP eat wth WK and TYS.. Headed home shower den went my gran's place... Long time nvr go... Went there assured my grandparents tt life in NS is ok for me..

Den went Hou meet WK,KKK and TYS... KKK left soon... Den the remaining 3 of us went TM met alvin lim watch Ocean 12... Not a bad movie lah.. Nvr watch Ocean11 but TYS gave a short intro so not too bad... Can understand most of the movie... But muz admit, this movie require some brain to understand...

later this morning playin bball wth the guys... Bookin in this evening le... so fast... but i bookin out for new year soon also... Yeah...

First book-out...NS not so bad so far..

First time online since 2 weeks ago... This is my first book-out...

Well.. i'm not gg to type everything bout my 2 weeks in Tekong (it'll take a long time) .. Lots of interesting stuff happened in the last 2 weeks.. Met wth lots of interesting ppl.. I'm posted to the Mohawk Company.. Its said to be one of the most 'xiong' company..Seriously the training as of now is still ok for me lah.. But after i book in den i dunno wad will happen... So i'm keeping my fingers crossed...

Rather satisfied wth my performance so far in BMT... I did manage to survive the 'test' given by the Platoon Commander and make it to the top 5 which he was lookin for... Haha.. But there are obviously much fitter ppl in my platoon lah... Its not as if i die die wanna go OCS lah.. But if really got chance den might as well try abit harder for OCS or SISPEC.. Even the pay will be better...

Went to Orchard wth DM, Alvin, WX, JJ, SYC and SPC todae... Had a chat wth them bout my NS life so far and gave them abit of advise on army life... Had our dinner at pizza hut... Spent alot of $$ todae eating and buyin the CD... haven got allowance frm NS yet.. So muz budget..

Tmrl playin soccer wth Senghou gang and affiliations.. Sun playin bball be4 bookin in at 1930... making this book-out worthwhile... Book in for bout 3 days and i'll be out again for new year...

Oh...

Merry xmas ppl....

and a Happy New Year....

Recruit Lim....

Brudders ah brudders...

Wonder what you guys doing at Tekong sia...

Not like you can read this...

Bleahz

FaBBy_Naibaf

My last post before NS

Yo brudders! San di's already gone in and it's time that Da ge follows suit. Wish me all the best of luck man. San di, best of luck to you too. It's routine stuff ya?

Anyways, allow me to whine.

I've got a flu (mild fever, cough and cold). Isn't that just wonderful?

Not to mention the beautiful muscle aches that I've got all over both arms, chest and back for the rather intensive last minute workout on tuesday.

All I'm hoping now is that I don't get fucked on my first day. ha...

Other than that. Yay... Good bye all.
Looks like I'll be out on christmas eve according to er di.

Da Ge

Ps: Happy Holidays and a very happy new year!

Till Xmas do we meet again... Tekong here i come..

Well.. this is the last post till xmas...

So fast.. Time really can fly.. I'm gg to tekong tmrl le...

Thanx to JK and DW for playin bball wth me this morning.. Really wanted to play last time be4 gg in...

I'm gg to miss life out here wth u guys man... Sigh...

Well, at least hp is allowed in there... So do drop me a sms when ur free... Let me noe how's life out here.. Maybe can even gimme a call at nite when i can use my hp... More than happy to chat wth u guys...

Anything on for Xmas??? I'll give DM a call once i get back on mainland k...

Keep in contact guys... Cya... Till xmas... Lookin forward already...

Signing off...
army-man-to-be...
Recruit LKL...

Oh..
Merry xmas... And a happy new year....

sO lOnEly...

Todae i woke up bout 1400hrs.. Whoa... Well, can't blame me.. Din slp at all the night be4.. Why?
Well.. Me, WK, KKK and TYS spent the nite at DW's hse frm ystdae... We went there to eat steamboat... Yeah.. Met up and went to buy the food at the nearby supermarket.. Told them dun buy so much they dun believe me.. So we din really finish all the food.. But mostly done lah..

Den it was late, so we decided to sleepover.. Anyway, DW's parents were away... So we had the whole hse to ourselves.. Poor DW gotta prepare and cleanup.. Haha... Thanx lah Boss...But we did leave some food for u wor... Lol...

TYS went to slp real early... Bout 1plus.. KKK was aslp by 2am.. DW hit the sacks bout 2.30am.. Den WK say he din wanna slp.. So i played NFS wth him on DW's com whole nite... WHoa.. DAmn tirin can... Play till 5am.. Me almost went crazy lor..

Left his place at 5.30am.. All of them gg for prom mah... Muz go back rest abit more den prepare le... But me... Nvr go prom... So doesn't really matter...

And now, everyone's at prom.. Only me at home... Sigh.. SO lonely and bored.. No money go..Wad can i do... Sian... Hope all enjoy themselves at the prom.. Wonder who the prom queen will be... Muz tell me wor.. Hehe...

I dun hav much time left le.. Gg in tekong this fri... Really gonna miss all... So much more to be done.. But no time... And i'm still coughing like shit..

Signing Off...
A very, very lonely swordsmen...
San Di...

Woah... crash a bbq huh...

Da Ge is back from holiday le...

Welcome Home!

And now i'm starting to come down with a flu le... The weather is crazy lor.

Anybody interested in going to NUS open house on 6th? Interested peeps can let me know ya? I can't go down on other days le...

FaBBy_Naibaf
TaTa For Now

Crashed a BBQ!!!!

Todae crashed a BBQ... lol... Its Wee Keat's class BBQ at east coast... So me and Alvin (Gan) went to met DeWei at his place, den took the bikes (DW has 3) and left for the BBQ.. Went there abit out of place so din really mix wth the ppl there.. Den when we cycled to get drinks, my bike so sway, tyre punctured.. Sian.. cycled back to the pit on a flat tyre.. Played Dai Di for awhile.. Soon, realise most of his classmates had left..

So it was left wth the 3 'crashers' , WK, Karen and Nat.. Karen's dad was picking her up and givin Nat a ride.. So the 4 guys were thinking how on earth can we get home.. Need to return the bikes to DW's place.. But there's 4 of us and only 3 bikes tt includes 1 wth a flat tyre.. Den Karen solved the prob.. She offered to gimme a ride home in her dad's car as well cos i live rather near her... I din realli wanna leave the guys behind.. But they were like ' juz go lah.. are u a man a woman' .. So I ended up in her dad's car while Alvin and WK decided to sleepover at DW's place... Would have gladly joined the sleepover if not for the fact tt gotta go out wth mum tmrl mornin.. Sorry guys...

So i got exactly 1 week left be4 enlistment.. Nxt fri i'm gg in... PTP has been cut to 4 weeks.. BMT cut from 10 weeks to 9 weeks.. Suppose to be happy wth tt huh...

Lets hope i can make the best of the remaining days.. Hmm.. Maybe i'll ask a ger out for once.. lol... But wth the cough and sore throat, nthing much i can do.. Sigh...

I'm gg to miss you guys...

Sore-throat...

This mornin played soccer wth the last time VSNP gang..long time no see them le..
Really great to see everyone enjoying themselves... Long time no play soccer together le...

Den WK tell me tmrl is ODAC KTV... Like not sian... Me now still sore-throat leh... How to sing at all... But its recovering lah... Hopefully tmrl can sing... Haha..

Juz finish watchin S'pore Idols.. SO the winner is Taufik... did i spell his name correctly?
Well.. seriously i doubt he'll make anythin in the World Idols... BUt at least he can sing... Not tt sly can't sing... But i juz feel Taufik has more variety... Sly is juz so rock... and only rock...

Ok.. gtg slp le... Need rest for my flu and throat to recover mah...

pOsT cHalEt... tIrEd...

Yawn..Juz got back from a 3D2N class chalet at Sentosa.. It was fun-filled but tiring.. Probably because i asn't feelin very well thru out the chalet... So here are some details of wad happened at the off-shore island called Sentosa for the past 3days...

Oh.. I realised i made some mistakes which i could hav avoided...

First day mornin i was supposed to meet JK den head there together.. But on knowing tt DM had to carry alot of things on his own, i tht i was being helpful when i offered to help him (mistake 1).. Due to the last min decision, me and JK wasn't able to make it to his place on time... End up all 3 of us were late in meetin the rest... Also, due to the rush packing of my bag, i forgot to bring along my swimming trunks which i regret later... Sigh...

We met TYS,HY and HX at the station, bought some stuff (drinks and snacks) and went to the hawker centre there for brunch... Me and JK decided to stick wth wad we always eat there.. The wanton mee (mistake 2)... We had always agree tt its nice.. But this time round, it tasted different and not as nice.. Den we went over to Sentosa and headed for the chalet.. But unluckily, we cannot book in yet... Had to wait for like 3 hrs plus.. Sian.. There was a small arcade wth many ancient games where i spent like $3 juz to pass time.. Den i began to feel really unwell.. Went to the toilet twice and felt like puking... My stomach was in constant pain.. Later on, JK also suffered a similiar fate.. We concluded its most probably due to the wanton mee.. Sian..

We went underwater world where we spent $11.. Den we decided to go back to harbour front for dinner.. So we went there, ate, den we went to the arcade... Had lotsa fun...Den when we went back to Sentosa, we realised we could hav gotten a re-admission stamp tt would hav saved us $3 (mistake 3).. Argh...

Wanted to go watch EPL wth JK and TYS.. End up they havin an event.. Roxy Girl of the year... so can't watch... And it costs $18 juz to enter the place to watch the event.. So ex.. We end up playin Dai Di in our huts..

2nd day, Fab, the girls and some other guys were suppose to join us...After breakfast at delifrance, we went back to chill in out huts while waitin for them to arrive..All the while DM was the one in contact wth them.. But since i had free incoming calls, DM got them to call me.. When the did, I offered to go bring them in when i could hav juz stayed in the hut (mistake 4).. Due to misunderstandings, they ended up gettin 'lost' .. And i guess its all my fault.. Should hav minded my own business..

They finally arrived, den they went for lunch at BK while the already-broke me and JK had to settle for cup-noodles in the huts.. After lunch, we played the 'Amazin Race' planned by DM.. My grp won.. Even in the rain, we played whole-heartedly... Got lucky a few times.. Den cos my grp finished first, we went back first to get umbrellas for the other grp.. I again was the one doing the job( mistake 5) and poor JK also tagged along.. We waited in the cold...Drenched from head to toe... Waited for so long.. And when they finally came, some even rejected our offer of umbrellas.. And we din even get a word of thanks.. Sigh...

Had the BBQ in the evening.. Played Dai Di wth JK,HY,TYS and HX till real late.. When HX and HY decided to slp, the 3 of us went to a place, sat down and chatted till 5 plus in the morning.. Den we went back to try to get some slp.. Den we joined the rest at the beach at bout 8 plus in the morning... Played beach volleyball.. Den it was time to check out.. So tt marks the end of the chalet...

So now here i am, home... Havin a sore-throat and a flu.. Need to get some rest..

But to the ppl from s4, i tink u guys rox.. Yeah...

p.s. thanx to eve for the belated-bdae present...

Signing off,
a tired, sickly and mistakeful KL...

Chalet....

Todae is the first day after 'A's... Post 'A's activities immediately initiated...
Morning went for soccer wth the Senghou Gang and affiliations... But it started raining...So we had to stop...Sian...

After tt went home... Showered... Then almost immediately left hse again... Met WK,KKK,DW and TYS for luch at hou plaza...den went KTV... started singing at bout 3 plus...
TYS got something on so he left earlier... Den KKK gotta get home to hav dinner and pick up his luggage... He's gg Thailand for holiday ya... Den suppose to go airport send him off.. But we decided not to go cos we dun really feel like gg all the way to the airport... it was rather late already anyway... we were suppose to stop out ktv session by 7pm... end up we sang till 8plus lor...haha... den WK and DW treated me to LAN for bout an hour..

So tt marked the end of todae's activities...

Tmrl is the start of the class chalet... Frm 27-29Nov... Hope to hav fun...but got a tight budget... sian... may end up sitting out some activities... Sigh... Wad to do... I poor leh...

And i dunno why, i still dun feel happy...

Alan.....

Wad say u...

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0. I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of space and valuable resources. In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system/activity. Applications such as Poker Night 10.3, Football 5.0, Hunting and Fishing 7.5, and Racing 3.6 no longer run, crashing the system whenever selected. I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run my favorite applications. I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the uninstall doesn't work on Wife 1.0.
Please help!

Thanks,A Troubled User.


Reply:
Dear Troubled User,
This is a very common problem that men complain about.Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0, thinking that it is just a Utilities and Entertainment program. Wife 1.0 is an OPERATING SYSTEM and is designed by its Creator to run EVERYTHING!!! It is also impossible to delete Wife 1.0 and to return to Girlfriend 7.0. It is impossible to uninstall, or purge the program files from the system once installed.You cannot go back to Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed to not allow this. Look in your Wife 1.0 manual under Warnings-Alimony-Child Support. I recommend that you keep Wife1.0 and work on improving the situation. I suggest installing the background application "Yes Dear" to alleviate software augmentation.The best course of action is to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE because ultimately you will have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.Wife 1.0 is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance. Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs, such as Clean and Sweep 3.0, Cook It 1.5 and Do Bills 4.2. However, be very careful how you use these programs. Improper use will cause the system to launch the program Nag, Nag 9.5. Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Flowers 2.1 and Diamonds 5.0! WARNING!!! DO NOT, under any circumstances, install Secretary With Short Skirt 3.3. This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system.

Best of luck,Tech Support

Yo~

'A' levels almost over le.

I re-open my blog le...

SMS me if you want to know the address.

FaBBy_Naibaf
ChillZ

Got to agree... 2 years almost over le... so fast.

Don't worry... maybe can see each other in Tekong... New fad in hairstyle.

Take care everybody.

To San Di. Take care hor. Seems like you haven't been in the best of moods recently.

To Deming. Abit the harsh ah... but since the papers are over le... there really isn't a point brooding over it. Exactly what can one do now? Might as well finish off the papers and look forward to NS. Its not really the end of the world. Have a good rest ya?

Not trying to make anybody feel better. But many of my choices for MCQ were just as good as buying 4D.

Got to work hard for the remaining papers. Paid for 'em after all yeah? All the Best!

We may cry today. But tomorrow we'll smile. Nothing really to heavy to get us down.

FaBBy_Naibaf

Welcome To My Life

Welcome To My Life
Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breakin down
Do you ever feel out of place
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screamin

No you dont know what its like
When nothin feels alright
No you dont know what its like
To be like me

CHORUS: To be hurt to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when your down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breakin down
And no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be sombody else
Are you sick of feeling so left out
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate
Are you sick of everyone around
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleedin

No you dont know what its like
When nothein feels alright
No you dont know what its like
To be like me

CHORUS

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think im happy
But im not gunna be ok
Everbody always get you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You dont know what its like, what its like

CHORUS

Remember....

Very fast... soon 'A's will be over...
Of course i'm happy, can slack soon... but it also means i'm gg to tekong soon...sigh...

Well actually i tink i'm gg to miss college... Seriously, we (s4 ppl) always complain bout long days and everything else bout college.. But come to tink of it, i guess we'll all miss the days we have in college... Maybe not exactly the long days... But the fun times we have cracking jokes even in the midst of lessons... Mr P.Tan ever 'interesting' GP lessons... Mr Ong's 'turtle' super cold jokes...
And of course how we manage to emerged as the Best CG... Amazing isn't it... As we complain how this class hav the Great Divide (Berlin Wall) , we actually seemingly is a very united class very bonded together.. Maybe we are huh... Thats why i tink i'm gg to miss all u ppl..So hope after 'A's, we still can keep in contact... Meet up once in a while to catch up abit... Chat bout the most-talk-about-person...lol...

And for the Senghou gang... wad can i say... u guys are my best grp of pals... and i'm sure we'll remain in contact probably till death... Maybe even after death? lol...

My brudders? haha.. u're probably the best frens i made in SRJC...

ODACians? this sure is a grp of fun...haha...never was there lack of lame jokes and all... and of course the many scandals... Though the scandals we probably can do without... lol... Credit to Gary for scandals huh...lol... 16th batch ODACians rox... Keep in contact guys (this include aliens, predators and dinosaurs i guess)...

So in short... i hereby thank everyone now for all the help and support u rendered me... I never regret knowing anyone of u ppl... Do keep in contact... For the remaining papers, gd luck...

WHY???

Todae had maths P2... Everyone was exclaiming " SO easy..." I can't deny tt it wasn't difficult..
But juz had a little discussion wth JK over the phone regarding the Maths paper... Looks like i made alot of careless mistakes... Argh... WHY??? Muz this happen to me juz when we're suppose to score for this paper...

I'm really super down... Can't believe this is the 'A's and i'm making silly mistakes all over... Really lack of practise is the reason for this... Nothing but myself to blame... Argh...

About half-way thru the 'A's already..but i'm not feelin any confidence to do well... Why muz this happen to me? After so many years, i juz can't afford to flop now... But somehow i still fear... Fear tt i won't do well.. I can't imagine wad will happen to me if i can't get into U... This fear... Its taking over me... Its suffocating me to death slowly... I juz wanna let it out... I really wanna juz break down and cry... Juz lose it... But... I'm holding on.... Barely... But still holding on... I'll nvr give up... For my sake.. For my own sake... I cannot give up... I dunno where i'm gg to get the strength from... But i muz get thru this... Muz hold on......

I always tell others, if the sky shud fall, there's always me to hold it up... But now.. I really need someone or something to hold the sky up for me... For now... Tears won't fall... Not now... Its not over... The battle is not over... I can still stage a comeback... I hope its a strong one...

Great idea!!!

Todae went to HP to meet JK to study... Did some Phy... Met TYS there... he's at bean...we at mac... den JK hav to leave at 4pm to meet my da sao... so left me one person there... WK came only bout 4.30pm... Den we chiong Phy tys together... Woow... Took a break for dinner at bout 7pm at the foodcourt be4 heading back to Mac to chiong abit more....

Den as we were leaving, he came up wth a great idea of the team (soccer) all wearin our jersey for the day we go back to receive our 'A's results... Great idea i tink.... Best is all of us get to go on stage to get an award... Den like not 'seh'... All wear same jersey... Woow.... Come to tink of it, we're all Victorians also somemore...Haha...

I really need to do well for the remaining papers to hav any chance to go on stage at all... Probably for the Most-Improvement award at best... Oh.. and of course my brudders... Hope all 3 swordsmen can go on stage also... Haha... Oh and er ge remember, we have a certain goal to achieve other than tt... Haha...

Really looking forward to the post-'A's activities...

Hope the class chalet will be enjoyable... Best CG leh... Dun pray pray...
Hope the soccer match can win....
But for now... Still got 2 more weeks of 'A's....

Some nice songs:
Wa Jie Nan Chuan Ma Ma
Jie Shou Fish Leong
Welcome to my Life Simple Plan

Yeah?

Went to alvin (gan)'s hse todae to do stats... The maths book really got some challenging qns siah... Got me baffled... Played PES3 also lah of course... Left bout 10.30pm... So end up missing ying yue ri ji... Sigh... Sian..

Juz now chest pain got a little unbearable... Argh...

Juz made my transfer for this gamweek... So many players i wanna change..But decided to make 1 only... Riise for naybet... Hope i made the right choice...

Ok.. Bout all... Really got a lot more to do for the upcoming papers...

Listenin to radio (they playin yi zhi dao zui hou...yeah).. gg back to my books...

" Bu yao fang qi...fou ahe dui bu qi zi ji...."

To infinity and beyond!

(Must have hit my head against something...)

(Then again... i'm always like that...)

(Introducing FaBBy's rendition of 'Fly Me To The Moon')

(LaLaLaLaLa... *background music*)

(... Fly me to the moon... and let me play among the stars...)

(... Let me see what it's like on Jupiter and Mars...)

(... LaLaLaLaLaLa... *forgets lyrics* ________ ) <--- Hey... Fill in the blanks if you think you know...

(I'm outta here...)

FaBBy_Naibaf

sIGH...

todae had bio P2 in the morning then maths P1 in the afternoon... was feeling realy tired... slept bout 2am den woke up 5.30am to chiong... last min work... sigh...
Bio i dunno wad to make of it... as usual, i dunno gd or bad... first time i try do essay first... end up nvr finish structured... sigh... sian...
maths was rather bad i muz say... quite a number of qns dunno how to do... feeling so down after the paper lor... sigh... feel like cryin.... walk home in the rain...

Den went to make jersey wth senghou gang + DW... choose liao... black jersey... addidas... $35 each lor... not cheap... but got no. and name so not so bad... I takin No.9 lor... so funny... lol
not even a striker.. but its the best no. left... den after tt we were all discussing bout the formations and tactics... so enthu lor... discuss all the way to tys' hse... went there to visit him and to discuss more... had a meetin at his dining table... it was there we finally decided our first team and formation...

Fab, DM and DH went also... they belong to the earlier grp and are stayin there overnight... I can't cos tmrl still playin soccer... Haha...I need a break... otherwise i'll juz break down... really feelin very down after todae's papers... luckily got my gang and brudders there... can take my mind off exams...

I'll need to chiong for the remaining papers for my 'A's to be anywhere near something gd... so wish me luck...

" wish that i could cry...."

Booo....

Boo...

Dare mo mina samayoi nagara kotae wo sagashite...

Ok... very sian... Gundam SEED and Gundam SEED Destiny rocks...

I got less than a month of free time before I get treated like a dog...

so anyone can entertain me?

*BELCH*

Ok...
bye...

All the best to those sitting for the biology and mathematics papers tomorrow.

Everybody... do take care.

To my brudders: May the force be with you all...

FaBBy_Naibaf

nO mOrE....

Warning: The following article may be offensive and crude... Do not read if u can take it... Ur warned...

From now on, u won't be seeing the Mr Nice Guy from me... Yup.. I'm no longer gg to be like be4 and be nice 24hrs a day 7 days a week.... I'm gg to open up the evil me when required... No more kind KL all day long like be4...

Last time u come to me wth problems i listen and try to help as much as possible... u come to me for help i nvr turn u down... u say bad things bout me, i juz smile and let it pass... u scold me in every aspect, i dun even reply a single bad thing bout u.... u're down and sad i humour u wth jokes... when i'm pissed i hide it and cover it wth a smile... u climb all over my head and even shitted on it, i give u a smile and nothing more...

But now... be warned... For i would not think twice bout lashing back at u... i won't give a damn bout u and all ur probs if i dun feel like helping... u won't see me smiling as often and i won't hold back criticisms... If u can't stand my voice, u probably won't be hearing it at all... If u dun like to see me, u probably won't see me except for during exams... I probably won't be appearin anywhere else other than college for exams... wadeva shit u give me i'll give u back ten twenty times... And i mean it...

That does not mean the good in me i dead... I still will be nice if ur nice... the nice and kind KL will still surface if u deserve it...

Dun blame me... u pushed me into this...

And i'm tellin u to watch out... Dun push me further... Dun put the evil me to overdrive... For there is a limit i can go... and pass the limit, there's no way back... the nice KL wll be lost forever... u've been warned...

I'm not referrin to anyone in particular for the 'u's above... it may be everyone, or no one... i dunno... I'm juz pissed wth everything... Myself, my life and all... u may tink i'm gg crazy... but i tell u i'm perfectly sane as of now... Dun qns me bout this post... i won't and can't explain it...All i can say is tt i'll still be nice to some of my better pals... My brudders of course.... But no matter who u are, if u hav any doubts after reading this, dun ask me bout it... pls...

p.s. gd luck to all... i'm saying this for the last time...

At least can throw away the GP notes. Won't be needing them in NS anyway.

Didn't do that well for GP. Below my usual writing standard. Stupid paper (Blame the paper if anything goes wrong. You can't be wrong.)

Anyway. God bless for the upcoming 'A' level papers. Starting with Chemistry for the science stream people. Yes. Been close to failing this subject all along. Now have to aim high for a B grade or better (Can't aim any lower than this can i?) And all the best to those taking the Maths paper as well as Bio paper the next day.

Have to cram 2 years of biology into 2 days of studying. Nice. I like.

And to my brudders, especially San Di. Take care lehz. Drink more water, eat more fruits. Abit of Ice cream can la... :p

FaBBy_Naibaf
DoooD...

Sneeze...Am i being kind or stupid?.... Sneeze

This morning had GP... First written for 'A's... Paper 1 was fine really... The topic tt i prepared for kinda came out..Not exactly the same but at least wad i prepared helped.. Paper 2 i dunno how i'll fare... Guess i'll hav to wait till nxt yr to find out...

After the papers, went Kovan Mac wth the s4 guys+Da Ge+WK (singles) to makan... WX, Caleb and JK were all there but each wth a ger... Went home after tt...

After i came out of the shower, DH called... He and TYS had went swimming and were stranded at Hou Swimming Cmplx because of the heavy rain... They were asking me for help... Being the gd fren i am, i agreed and brought umbrellas to them... Sent them to their bus stop be4 headin home in the rain myself... And now, i'm sneezing a little again... Not blaming them but i qns myself: Am i being kind or stupid??

Den while i was trying to get some Chem into my head, the doorbell rang.. Went to the door only to see 3 kids no bigger than Sec2 at my door step... They were tryin to sell ice-cream... Usually i woud hav juz said no and no... But this time round, lookin at how young they were, somehow, i convince myself to buy a slab of ice-cream frm them... It was the kind of ice-cream tt u see uncles on motorcycles sell, often wth the ice-cream between 2 pieces of biscuits... $6.80 for tt 1 litre slab...Sigh..Am i being kind or stupid??

Feelin a little discomfort in my chest again... my 'lao mao bing'... Since young i had always suffered chest pains now and then... But really its rather mild most of the time and they seldom occur... Guess its nothing serious huh...

p.s. anyone got the lyrics to Ge Qian by Jay Zhou? If have can pass me a copy? Really like the song but my com can't read chinese so i can't get it... thanx

" ping chang shi, xiao xiao shuo.
zhao ji shi, man man yan.
sheng qi shi, qing qing jiang."

Tmrl GP...i noe i noe....

Well...tmrl will be the start of the many written papers for 'A's...
Sigh... Probably because i haven been working hard, i hav little confidence for the 'A's...
Really... Its much worse than the 'O's... Back then, no matter how slack i was, i nvr had so much fear i'll flop...

Guess its too late now to regret... All i can do now is to try to make-up for the times i had slacked by working extremely hard... Yah...i'll try... And i'll need lady luck to be my best fren by tmrl...

Tmrl is GP... I dunno wad to make of it... Nvr consistent in my GP... Sigh...

Still got abit of the flu disturbing me... Feelin much better liao... last few days was really bad... sneezing and feelin so weary....

Gd luck everyone...

'Whenever i'm weary, from the battles that rage in my head....." who will be there for me??
Myself....

Sneeze....

Todae went to college got the ODAC tee...
Den went KKK's hse wth WK... Discussed bout our team... Jersey numbers, tactics and all...
We're all so enthu bout the 'big game'

Sneeze sneeze... i've been doing tt for the whole day... yup..fell sick le...
the many late nights hav finally taken its toll on me... and wad a time it came... juz a few days be4 GP paper... Argh... God...

Tryin to study Bio amidst the sneezin... Listening to the radio as usual...
Ying yue ri ji on YES93.3FM... reminds me of myself when i was in Pri 6...

p.s treasure the all the loved ones u hav....be4 its too late....