Merry Christmas!!!

OMG!! Its like 5am now... And i juz came outta the shower.. Haha.. Had an enjoyable day todae..

Morning played bball wth JK,DW and Alvin (Lim).. Though the ring was abit too 'tight'.. Haha..
Had brunch @ HP as usual ($4).. Den i headed for a hair cut at the barber near my place ($9)..
Went home.. Slacked at the com all the way till its time to meet up wth some of my classmates.. Went to Suntec.. Waited in the queue for awhile but finally got our table in NYDC where we had dinner ($22.60).. Den we decided to catch a movie.. Chronicles of Narnia, the lion the witch and the wardrobe.. ( $9.50).. But it was only like 9plus when we finish dinner.. And the movie was at 2320.. So we went walking arnd abit.. Saw this Addidas shirt i like.. But there were no more stock of the size i wan.. Sian.. So ended up din buy anything.. Seriously need to shop for my CNY's clothes lor.. After that went to the arcade play abit ($3).. After that went in for the movie.. Shared the family combo wth JK ($4)..I tink its a rather nice movie.. Dunno why, JK,Alvin and Caleb din like it.. I tot the director did well in converting this story from the book into a movie.. And i do tink the storyline is great.. Very tempted to read the book.. Anyone got the book can lend me?? Haha..

After the movie, we started to walk.. Aimlessly at first.. Den we decided to head for Lau Pa Sat for supper.. Was a really long walk.. Took a break at a 7-11 along the way.. Got some drinks ($2).. Also took a toilet break for JK at a coffeeshop along the way.. Finally reach Lau Pa Sat already like 3plus le.. Had supper ($3).. After that we started hunting for cab home le.. But there was no available cab at all.. So we started walking.. Basically, i tink we covered all the roads in the area todae.. walked round in big circles.. Haha.. Splitted into 4 in each cab and headed home ($7)..

This totals up my expenses todae to about $65.. Whoa.. Stress.. Tts alot of money lor.. But i did had lotsa fun.. Its always great gg out wth all the guys.. Haha.. Anyway its xmas.. Spend abit more lor.. haha..

Well.. Guess i shd try and get some slp.. Though its already like 0530hrs.. If in camp i would have woken up and fall in like 10mins ago le..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Xmas wth coursemates...

After booking out todae, instead of gg home or go out wth the usual ppl, instead i headed to Jalan Kayu.. I was one of the four that took OC's car.. The rest either ride bike or take bus.. Our whole course plus instructors, went to Jalan Kayu for a dinner together..

Ate alot of stuff.. Kambing soup was nice.. The murtabak was great.. And who can forget the satays.. haha... Each one of us paid $3 den the rest of the bill settled by our Course Senior Instructor... Then after dinner was the gift exchange.. Very funny session... There were of course normal gifts like chocolates.. Then there was gifts like condoms.. pregnancy kit.. some durex special gel.. LOL.. Quite some fun...

After that hitch a ride on fren's bike to Sengkang to take a bus home..

Tmrl morning playing bball.. Hope the weather's good.. Then in the evening meeting up wth the class.. I seriously wonder how many will turn up.. But then again, its the quality, not the quantity that matters.. Haha..

Some songs:
One Little Slip - Barenaked Ladies
Feng - Jay Zhou

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Nights out..

Wonderin wad i'm doing online and blogging now on a Wed nite?? Haha.. Well, i got to stay out todae.. Thanx to the A & P test in the morning (which i scored 'relatively well'), while others got night off, a few of us got to stay out, and report back to camp the nxt day in the morning.. Haha..

Oh, and i juz completed my Basic Cardiac Life Support on Mon.. So level up le.. haha.. No more Heartsavers.. I/V todae for me was fine, one shot one hit..But due to the rain, booked out abit late..

Met up wth WK at HouMall, to get my present for gift-exchange for my course(camp) mates.. In the shop some embarrasing things happened.. Shan't explain.. Anyway, got the present, and then played a little pool, before we headed for HP to have supper wth JK..

Life as a trainee again hasn't been easy.. But i'm still hanging on.. I'm still surviving wth a smile on my face.. Ok.. Better go and slp le.. Tmrl still gotta book in de.. More tests coming soon.. So many books to study...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"想关上这城市所有的灯光 黑暗中专心闻你的发香 这夜晚 让暗恋很有画面感"

Bookin In.... Sigh...

Going to have to leave home and return to camp in a few hrs time..Sigh.. This feelin really sux.. long time nvr book in sun nite le.. Need some gettin use to..

Morning had quite an enjoyable soccer session.. Alf was late.. So me, JK,KKK and WK played.. Scored relatively alot todae.. Me and KKK scored most of the goals.. But the most memorable goal i have is surely the one where i lob the goalkeeper.. Whoo.. Not often u see a keeper get lobbed over in a street soccer court ya..

After soccer, went for brunch.. Den went home to plan for the afternoon.. But we ended all stayin home instead.. And for me, i spend the whole afternoon on the com.. Watching Sky High and Chicken Little.. Wanna find ppl chat wth me also dun have.. Too little frens.. Sigh..

Haven been takin any driving lessons in 2 weeks le.. Sigh..

Still not use to stay in.. Who will be?? haha.. But this transition period is diff to get thru man.. If only i have a source of emotional support.. Can't get myself to feel happy bout much things.. Juz feelin too negative..Argh.. Need to get out of it...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"忘了是怎麼開始 也許就是對你有一種感覺 忽然間發現自己 以深深愛上你　真的很簡單"

ODAC !!

Played a very short bball session wth JK in the morning.. After breakfast, went his place and the 2 of us were chionging Dynasty Warrior.. haha.. Chiong already i got home den prepare to go Tampines meet up wth JK, WK and DW le..

Me and JK arrived late.. haha.. as expected.. TYS and Alvin (Gan) were there as well.. But they both left soon after.. The 3 of us walked round TM and Century Square in search for a present for the exchange later.. Managed to played a game of World Combat as well.. Me and DW proceed to produce one of the best 2 men team result we've achieved.. Den after finally gettin our presents, we headed in DW's car and picked up Yvonne.. By then, Layee already decided not to join us totally le..

Arrived at Marina Bay, met up wth the rest, den we had dinner at Chong Pang..Started dinner like 7plus.. ended bout 9plus.. Den there was the present exchange.. Well, i actually drew WK's present.. A diary for 2006.. And the lucky guy who got my present was DW.. He got the cute polar bear i bought.. Haha.. XuanYu and gang was like sayin my polar bear only meant for girls.. But i disagree.. I mean who says guys can't get soft toys as present?? haha..
There were a clock and a pair of 'shoes' in the pile of present, which cause some discussion bout the superstitious meanin behind such gifts..

After that they say they gg to Suntec.. So, me,JK,DW and WK stayed and played some arcade first.. Cos we're taking the car.. Den after a disappointing session of World Combat, we finally proceeded to meet up wth the rest.. They changed location to Bishan J8.. So we hang out at the coffee bean for awhile.. Den bout 0130hrs we started to leave.. Shimin left wth SiewFong, XuanYu and Shuming.. Den the remaining 10 of us took some time to discuss the trip home in the 2 cars.. I probably reach home the earliest..If not me then JK bah i guess.. Haha..

Tmrl morning, or i shd say later this morning playin soccer... But the thing is i dun feel slpy.. I dun tink its because of the coffee, cos i noe coffee and tea has little effect on me.. Probably its because i'm stay in again.. So it makes me treasure weekend more again like last time..

Anyway, i enjoyed myself alot during the gathering.. Happy to see my da ge and er ge again.. And the rest of the ODACians whom i dun meet up wth often.. And i do tink the gift-exchange is rather 'cool'!! haha.. Hoping to meet up wth the ODACians more often..

Nxt weekend may well juz have another gatherin wth the class.. I mean that is if DM manage to get everyone to turn up.. Haha.. Another gift exchange perhaps?? lol..

Sadly, have to book in tmrl and its back to camp.. As a trainee.. Wth the PTs, IVs and all the tests coming..Doesn't really help does it.. Sian.. Sigh...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"So she said what's the problem baby... " ~ song for the brudders!!!!

IV.. Harry Potter??

Soccer, Frisbee.. All the lessons, practical and theory.. The nights off and all... And of course, there was the live I/V infusion.. Quite an eventful week.. 2nd week le.. So everyone gettin closer as frens.. So nicknames starts to named for everyone.. And somehow, many of them like to relate me to Harry Potter.. Say i look like Potter.. Wad the hell man.. I mean i noe i dun look as mature as an 19 yr old shd.. But Potter is like how small lah... The last time i heard anyone say i look like Potter was last time is sch when i was wearin dark-specs.. but now i'm not.. So why Potter again??

Riddukulus!!!!

Tmrl ODAC gatherin in the evening.. Gg shoppin in the afternoon for the present...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"Avada Kavaeda!!! "

Yup... my heartfelt congratulations to the newly commissioned officers.

All the best to them!

Suddenly feel that specialists quite a sad bunch...
But at least got P.O.P.

Nvm... at least we can look forward to O.R.D.!

Oh yeah... San Di! All the best to you on your course!
Physical training shouldn't be a problem... just need abit of warming up...
Hahaz!

FaBBy_Naibaf

Sun burn.. Sigh..

Sian lor.. Tmrl morning gotta book in to do duty le.. Sigh.. Never did guard duty in this camp be4.. Last 6 months i here, i always do Guard 3IC only.. Sian..
Then it'll be another week till Fri be4 i can bookout again.. Sian..

This afternoon was spent playin arcade wth DW.. A few misunderstandings resulted in us wasting alot of time in travellin to Parklane in DW's car.. Then called Fab down to meet us (Me, DW and WK).. Then we started a super long journey to SAFTI MI to attend the Officers' Commissioning Parade.. We 'holan' dunno how many times.. Keep exiting at the wrong place, or missing the exit.. Ended up that abit late..But along the way we say the COA (Chief of Army)'s car.. Haha.. so follow him all the way.. Den we waited at the entrance for TYS.. TYS den alighted at the wrong bus stop.. So by the time we go in, quite late le..

The parade already started.. Saw ZhengYang there as well.. He on duty though he not the batch commissioning.. The parade was rather well-done at first.. But later, there were a few cock-up here and there... So i wasn't really very impress.. Den the time came for frens and relatives to go down and congratulate the officers.. So we went down... Felt happy and proud for all my frens in the number1 uniform there.. Shook their hands.. Gave them a hug.. We also managed to take a pic wth KKK and DM.. Couldn't find WX though.. Sad to say.. Well guys, congrats to ur..

After the parade, we went back on DW's car, intending to have dinner at Jurong Point..End up carpark full.. So we drive here and there.. Ended up eating at AMK S11.. Haha.. After dinner come home le.. I'd love to stay out longer.. But the fact that i have guard duty tmrl keeps bugging me.. and i noe i need the rest.. This course, unlike any others before, places emphasis on PT as well..which is the thing bugging me the most.. Can't blame me rite.. i mean i've been inactive for like half a year le..

Lookin forward to the nxt weekend le.. The ODAC gatherin on Sat only proves to make the weekend more 'looked-forward to'.. Haha..

Ok lah.. i tink i shd go and slp le.. Tmrl still gotta wake up rather early in the morning.. And there is still a week of studying and lessons to take.. So cya guys.. Do msg me often ya..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

" Being against the wind, makes the road more difficult.. But it also makes it more possible to soar in the air.. "

so i try to fly..........

First book out...

My first bookout for the Mod Medic Spec Course.. Hooray.. But then, Sun i got Guard Duty.. Sigh.. Meanin Sun burn le.. Sob..

Anyway, to summarise all i've been thru... Basically, so far the lessons i still can cope.. Be it theory or practical.. Thank goodness i did Bio at 'A' lvl, First Aid course at St John.. and i did stay in the camp as a TSS helpin out do alot of stuff in my almost half a year.. So more or less the stuff till now i noe at least abit.. But then physically ar, i TCMI le..In fact, now my arms are so sore, i cannot do much push ups anymore.. Luckily its the weekend and i can rest...

The course is really packed.. I mean it feels that they're tryin to teach alot of stuff in very short time.. I really wonder how the rest wth no Bio background are coping..

So there has been news bout an ODAC gatherin nxt Sat.. Looking forward to it of course.. BBQ or Marina Bay?? Gift-exchange?? Wonder how this gatherin will turn out....

Oh, there will be a one week hospital/ambulance attachment during the course for us.. Cool!!

But in camp can get so sian and lonely.. No hp allowed somemore during working hours.. But then again, not as if anyone's gg to sms me.. But its juz that my hp seems my only link to the outide world..

Anyway, tmrl is Officers' Commissioning parade.. Probably gg for the parade to see see.. 10 Dec is also my 1-year anniversary in NS.. Can't wait to ORD.. Sigh.. Den Sun is book in for me in the morning.. Sigh.. Sad sad..

Morning and afternoon still got no plans.. Sian.. Dun wanna waste my time lor.. Sigh..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

" Seek, Save, Serve, Spec II"

The day has come....

Well, its here.. todae is my last day before my course starts.. Tmrl onwards, for 14 weeks, i'll become a trainee again.. Duffel bag seems very very heavy... Sigh..

Mornin played soccer.. Then in the afternoon went to play pool at the Labryinth (dunno how to spell lah).. Very ex place indeed.. Someday shd try out the boardgames corner in the other place near there.. Seem very nice to juz sit there wth a grp of frens and chat and play boardgames over some coffee and tea..

Got home, and started doing some last min addition to my duffel bag.. But seriously, i tink i'll rather enjoy arranging and placin all my belongings in my cupboard.. haha.. Already lookin forward to bookin out on fri.. Hoping to get plenty of nights off..

And so this is like my last post before my course starts.. Well, if u're readin this, juz take a little while, and pray for me ok? haha.. Gg to need all the luck and blessin i can get.. I may seem a little lucky, but more luck can't be bad rite? haha..

Luckily i still have music to keep me company thru the course.. The last time i was on course (BSLC), music was a great fren.. I mean, music had always played a very big role in my life.. And of course there were a few frens who were chattin wth me.. I have a feelin i'll be listenin to 杨丞琳's songs quite often.. haha.. of course there are jay's new songs..

It was great to be able to meet up wth the class ystdae.. and i'm hoping to be able to meet up wth the ODACians soon.. Long time no see everyone le.. Wonder how everyone doing..

Do sms me when u're are free.. can chat wth me.. haha.. serious..


aLaN ~ sAn dI

"我相信 找不到有比你更好的人 你心里理想情人是几分 是否也会有我的份 "

Class Gathering...

The whole of morning till late afternoon was spent playin games at frens' hse..

Then went home to take a shower and change before headin to Punggol Park for the class gathering..

Went to this restaurant call 'Bliss' which is inside Punggol Park.. 12 guys turned up.. But only 2 girls came.. And they came late and left early.. Ha.. To tink DM push back the class gatherin till after the exams of the girls, tinking more of them will turn up..
Anyway, the food there's really not bad.. I had the Cheese Slipper Lobsters served wth butter rice.. (Later on i found out the so called 'slipper lobster' is actually crayfish).. And there is no service charge, GST or anything of that sort.. So rather worth it..

The atmosphere there's quite nice as well.. Wth the candles and all.. We had a table inside the air-conditioned place.. But there are more tables outside near the 'pond'.. And at night, with the candles, the ambience is really quite nice.. Very soothing to the eye.. Can say its romantic if u wan it to be.. haha.. But i juz like the atmosphere..

DM also treated the whole table to some wine.. One bottle of red wine, one bottle of white wine.. After dinner, we went to the nearby playground and started chatting.. Few of us even started playin some of the 'stations' there.. haha.. of course, i was involve.. lol.. well, many ppl do always say i like small kid.. Bought some drinks and snacks from 7-11 den we all chatted for quite some time.. Long time nvr see everyone le.. Really had a great time wth all of them lor.. Best CG not anyhow get wan lor.. Haha.. This class (or at least the guys) are really all great ppl..

Tmrl still got soccer in the morning.. And its my last day before course starts.. Sigh.. Wish me luck ok??

aLaN ~ sAn dI

P.S. Congrats to all the OCTs passing out coming Sat..

SO.. Bliss restaurant anyone??

3rd driving lesson.. .

Spent the morning finish readin Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.. Sad ending indeed.. some surprises, but mostly expected.. After readin all 6 books, i made some interestin matching sub-consciously...

Firstly, i do tink JK and Ron Weasley are similar.. Both have the blur look on their faces more often than not.. And they are blur.. Haha..

Also, Fabian and Albus Dumbledore are similar as well.. Imagine Fab peerin over his spectacles and compare that to Dumbledore peerin over his half-moon spectacles.. Haha.. And they are both very good-tempered.. Always appearin so compose..

Hao Yi also remind me of Tom Riddle.. The teenage Lord Voldermort still studying at Hogwarts.. I'm not sayin HaoYi is evil.. Its juz that they are similar in many other ways.. Both intelligent and seldom talk much.. They are both man of few words.. Both are fearless of everyone and everything.. At least HaoYi gimme the impression that he is fearless, or does not show fear..

And another one will be Professor Flitwick and DM.. Well.. no need for me to explain much here.. lol..

I'll continue bout this nxt time.. Now bout driving..

Todae start only car 'die'.. But luckily that was also the last time it happened.. Disappointingly, i failed to break my record speed.. On the whole still ok.. 3hrs of driving so far in total.. I would say my performance so far is still ok bah.. i hope.. lol..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

P.S. I shd juz have a whole post bout all the Harry Potter characters and ppl arnd me.. haha.. i can go on and on and on... ...

Happy day with a sad ending...

This morning went to Sentosa wth my wing ppl.. See got so many ppl den i realise that 'O' and 'A' levels finish liao..and its the hols.. no wonder so many ppl at Sentosa lah.. There was no sun.. It was cloudy and rained abit thru out the day.. But i like the weather that way..

Spent the whole day out there.. Only got home like 6plus in the evening.. Was feelin happy lor.. Den they e-mail me the stuff to bring for my course startin on Mon.. Den realise they need me to bring more than i've planned.. And they also require some stuff which i do not hav or hav not prepared.. I tot i was more or less done for my packing liao lor.. Den now lidat.. This is something which makes me very stress.. I dun like it when ppl come spoiling my plan.. And i was already feelin so sian bout the course le.. This is not helping me at all..

Feelin even sadder..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Harry Porter and the Goblet of Fire..

Ystdae was awarded half day off.. So get to leave camp bout 1200.. Den decided to join the class gers for Harry Porter and the Goblet of Fire.. So headed to PS.. Seriously, i prefer the previous Albus Dumbledore.. This new guy juz dun fit.. The movie was different from the story in the book.. The director did ok lah.. I tot the way he handled the Quidditch Cup Final was rather short and sweet.. Then there was the appearance of Cho Chang.. Ok, she is rather good-looking, but i tink she's bit on the plump side isn't it?? .. Oh but comparing the Draco Malfoy in Chamber of Secrets to this Malfoy, he sure change for the better, in terms of looks of course.. Hermione tried to impress during the ball, but i tink she looks more childish in her dress.. She looks more 'mature' when she wears her Muggle' clothings.. haha..

On the whole, its a 6.5/10 rating from me..

After the movie, went home change and jog off to meet JK and WK for an evenning jog.. Jog until i wanna die.. Really cannot make it... Den went for dinner wth JK at HP before heading home...

Alright, gotta go prepare liao.. Gg to Sentosa todae.. Haha.. But its drizzling out there.. Hopefully its not raining on the island there down south..

Thurs and Fri leave.. Hoping to enjoy myself as much as possible.. Before my course starts ya...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"故事中的我们 在演自己的一生 "

Hitching rides...

This weekend got alot of rides from DW and TYS's cars.. Ystdae evening den go out.. Went Parkway to play pool... After that 6 of us split into 3 in each car.. Headed to Katong for LAN gaming.. Me and JK were in DW's car.. Den when we reach, had to do parallel parking.. DW super stress wth the 2 of us givin instruction here and there.. haha.. but really damn funny.. me and jk were outside the car, tryin very diff to give instruction to DW.. In the end DW took quite a FEW tries to make it.. haha.. Not say he lousy lah.. We ourselves haven try it yet.. so better keep the comments to ourselves.. After that went for supper (roti prata).. Den they sent us home..

This morning early morning wake up still feel slpy.. Went to meet wth DW and TYS.. End up both of them drove here.. Haha.. Den we headed for MacRitchie Reservoir for the SIM-Malrose Charity Walk.. Not many ODACians turned up.. But not a bad day lah.. it was relaxing walk which we chatted all the way.. walk all the way except when we saw 2 girls joggin past us, we were tempted indeed to start joggin.. LOL...

After the Walk, we went to Bishan for lunch.. Now wth ZhengYang's car as well.. So total 3 cars on the road.. Cool leh.. Haha.. Went Cafe Cartel for lunch.. Went for the St Louis BBQ Sauce Ribs.. Eat until full.. haha.. And the 8 of us did finish the whole basket of bread.. LOL..

After that took DW's car home.. All full and slpy.. But late afternoon went for soccer.. play until shag.. haha..

Ok so this weekend's not bad indeed.. Very eventful.. Really can't wait till i get my licence.. Den i can try and borrow a car and drive out also.. It has always been our dream..To all drive our own car out together.. The rest had all set high aims on the cars they wan.. I also wanna drive a gd car lah, but to be realistic, my first aim of a motor vehicle is a scooter.. Den can drive to Uni... and to work..

But in order to hav any hope of passin my driving at all, i muz muz try to slow down.. I realise i'm quite a speedy car driver.. And i still wanna go faster.. Shit.. Got speed limit ar KL.. Better wake up ur idea.. Its juz that i dun feel that its fast.. Tts all..

On a sadder note.. Dec 5 is juz coming closer and closer..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"加足了马力 飙到底 看仔细
零到一百公里 谁敢与我为敌 "

Joke...

Was juz seatin in the living room bout 2 days ago.. Talking to my sis..
Decided to test her a little on her general knowledge...

Me: where is USA's "shou du" (in chinese) ?

Sis: wad is "shou du"?

Not knowin how to explain it to her, i juz said

Me: 'shou du' is capital lah..

Amazingly...

Sis: Orh.. i noe wad is capital...

Still abit surprised wth the ans...

Me: So USA's capital is???

Sis: (as a matter-of-factly) 'A' lor... A for America..

*Fainted
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Somehow, i tink she has the potential 'lameness' in her.. Perhaps if she go find a partner-in-crime, she can form a great team.. lol.. Juz like how Evelyn says how me and JK are easily the ultimate 'cold' .. lol.. I'll take that as a compliment for both of us... Thank you..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

" I drive myself crazy thinking bout u... "

Second driving lesson...

Juz got back from my sceond driving lesson.. ok lah.. But i had a feelin i did better in the first lesson.. The last time the car 'died' was because i release the clutch too early.. But todae its because i din depress the clutch when its gg to stop.. damn.. I'm stupid.. Anyway, i made a conscious effort to glance at the mirrors more often todae..

Other than the fact the car 'died' only once i believe (compared to 3 times or was it 2 last session), the only other improvement, was the fact that i broke my top speed record.. lol.. It was like 85km/h i tell u.. on a normal road.. haha... I juz wanna go faster..

End of year coming.. Everyone happy.. Exams ending.. Holidays coming.. Clearin leave.. But for me, it only means my course gg to start.. Sigh.. Coincidentally, i tink i'm gg to pass out on KKK's bdae.. And he's gg to pass out on my NS 1 Year Anniversary..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

readin harry porter.. and wastin my leave away doing nothing (As expected)...

Ah* chooooooo..

Argh.. Keep sneezing..

With a heavy heart, i was packing my duffel bag to prepare for the coming course.. 5th Dec.. Sigh.. I noe i only stand to gain from gg for course.. But the fact is i've stayed out for like almost 4 months or even more.. Askin me to stay in again.. And become a trainee.. Oh man.. I dunno... Well, at least driving's been OK so far..

Haven got the chance to listen to songs much recently, so no songs to recommend.. If ur have any nice songs muz tell me hor... Radio on but i'm either busy reading, playin or day-dreaming.. Ha..

Juz for thought.. How long has it been since u last drop a tear? Its been like 7 years since i last cried.. Its suppose to be better if u let tears flow more freely rite?? To let the emotions out.. Isn't it?? Dunno why this tot came into my mind...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

" 到不了的都叫做远方回不去的名字叫家乡 "

First driving lesson...

Juz came back from my first driving lesson.. It was not bad lah.. But somehow i had the feelin i din really use much of the rear view mirror and the side mirrors.. Seems that the view in the front screen was more than enuf to occupy me and allow me to drive.. Not a very gd thing rite? i mean i tot the rear view and side view mirrors shd be used very often? haha.. But the instructor said i was rather ok for a first timer... the car 'died' less than 3 times lah... But i did drove home frm Ubi.. haha

Tmrl gotta go back to camp.. Wed and Thurs on leave again.. Nxt driving lesson is thurs
afternoon 1500hrs...

This morning finished readin Harry Porter and the Goblet of fire.. Not bad.. But i really tot Harry was gg to get Cho as his date lor.. Or at least Hermione.. But all the same, i still tink Harry's a lucky guy.. A very very lucky guy.. Envious? Of a fictional character?? Nah...
Anyway they're showing Part 2 of Harry Porter and the Chamber of Secrets later tonight.. Shd be watching...

As the day gets nearer, i can't help feelin a little uneasy..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

where is my 理想情人??

And yes.. it was a slp-thru-the-day sunday for me.. Haha..Spent the whole afternoon slping.. wanted to read Harry Porter and the Goblet of fire de.. But i decide to slp instead...

Now the sky out there is real dark.. And yes.. it juz started raining.. Wanted to ask ppl out for dinner.. Den decided against it.. They're showing Harry Porter later at 1945hrs.. And i'm thinking of watchin it.. So i guess i got to settle for noodles for dinner..

Tmrl on leave.. First lesson of driving gg to start tmrl.. Wonder how i'd fare...

For the past 2 nights, have been reading Harry Porter till quite late.. But without fail, I'll hear 杨丞琳's 理想情人 on the radio juz before i decide to stop readin and go to slp.. Really like the song alot.. And the lyrics is so nice.. Haha..

穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心砰砰地跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好

喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信
找不到有比你更好的人
你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份

好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份 我想问
亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以
告诉我标准 不要让我一直等

听着那时间滴答的走
对街的你在点头
好像一个梦 渐渐
走到我前头

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Clearing leave...

Will be clearing leave soon liao.. Tmrl, nxt Mon,Wed and Thurs all on leave.. Cos Dec 5 my course start liao.. Sigh.. Means no more stay out.. Feelin abit sad... Sigh...

Well, contacted a instructor liao.. Practical driving gg to start nxt week.. Tmrl FTT... Stress...

Feel abit as though my leaves are wasted.. Cos i probably got nothing to do on all those days.. So anyone free on any of those days ask me out.. Tryin to make those days more 'used'..

Driving starting, course to prepare for.. expenses gg to go up.. Stayin in liao.. FTT how? Prac driving can make it?? Argh... SO many things to juggle.. I need a break.. Why all the things so 'zun' come at same time...
Driving me nuts man...

But i will survive right?

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Duty.. Sian..

Well.. Tmrl i hav guard duty (as guard 3IC).. Meaning i wun be home.. Sigh.. Seems that i stay out too long liao.. Now stay one nite i also dun feel gd.. Lidat nxt month go course how siah?? Walk one step see one step lor..

Once in a while, instead of running wth another fren, run alone also not bad.. Realise that when i put the music in my ears, and either concentrate on running or to the music, it helps... Thats the time when all my troubles seem to disappear..

I like to travel.. As in everyday, when i go to camp or go home, i juz put my earphones on.. and i juz day dream.. haha.. Will rather no one bother me.. I'll prefer to be left alone on a bus/MRT ride unless its a close fren, which i sadly have none in my camp..

My Mdm really very nice person siah.. Find out my FTT this fri, she lend me all her notes and book from her lessons few months back.. Abit stress bout the test...

Nvrm, tmrl duty means not gg to have much time to slp, so i was thinking, might as well use the little time to study for my FTT, or read the Harry Porter books i borrowed from Evelyn.. Lucky she lend me 2.. If not sure not enuf.. Haha.. JK Rowling sure was a popular name among my class back in JC.. Haha.. Juz realise there its 'Rowling', not ' Rowlings'.. So how did JKRS came about.. haha..

"Every little thing I do, never seems enough for you...."

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Wallet feelin a lil empty...

Wah.. this mornin's soccer session was hot weather again.. The team was about the same as ystdae.. Juz that JK replaced WK.. and we din hav KKK.. But the session was quite enjoyable lah.. Din win much.. But we did ok... Considering the fatigue in us..

After lunch, we all went home first... Poor JK gotta book in @ 1700.. So he couldn't join us for afternoon plans.. And so me, Alvin (Gan) and TYS went to City Hall.. We went there walk here walk there.. Den went to Suntec.. Den as usual, we walked round the fountain to see where we wanna eat.. After bout 1.5 rounds, we decided to walk into this place call " Surf And Turf" ..

Both of them had steaks (which seems like medium raw rather than medium rare to me) and crayfish.. While i went for Grilled Chicken and Crayfish... A filling meal indeed.. In fact, we din really finish our meals...

After that we go walk walk arnd.. Mostly went into the sports shops.. But we din buy anything..

"Many a time, ppl only see the mistakes others make.. But fail to recognise their own mistakes.. They put blame on others, not realising their own 'contribution' to the failure" - thought i had

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Tired..

Tired from todae's soccer session.. Tmrl gg to play again.. abit siao.. haha

But todae we did enjoy ourselves.. not really because we keep winning.. its juz that the atmosphere was different.. everyone happy and juz doing their best.. jokes here and there..

Been awhile since i last blogged.. Lets welcome back KKK and DM from Wallaby..

To DM: Congrats on ur Sword of Merit.. u did us proud.. though u forgot bout my baby kangeroo.. sad...

To KKK: take care of urself lah..come back so fast fall sick le.. i dunno why u so anxious bout the glass bottle, so much so that sick already still wanna go and find and dun wanna go home or eat wth us.. i hope whoever its for, the person appreciates it... anyway thanx for the present..

Oh.. and i finally got the Jay's new album.. Haha..

Meanwhile, take care everyone.. Class gathering shd not be far away now that DM's back..
ODAC gathering seems set to be the SIM Charity Walk.. which i forgot the date.. haha

So i guess we're be meetin soon....

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"我站在教室门口的小角落偷偷看着你可爱的笑容"

Thank you guys..

Spent the whole afternoon playin Maple Story.. Ok.. I'm a noob.. But still surviving ok...
Evening came and I had to settle dinner myself.. Juz when i tot i'm gg to eat by myself out there, Alvin (Lim) and Caleb came online..

Ha.. So of course i jio them go eat dinner wth me.. Luckily, they both agreed.. And so, my dinner wasn't alone..

After a 'filled wth jokes and laughter' dinner, we went for a short pool session.. Really very 'funny', how no matter how hard alvin tries, he juz can't win... Haha.. Luck wasn't on his side.. But if u go ask tys or wk ar, they'll tell u, play pool wth me ar, only i'll have gd luck.. haha...

Anyway thanx to these 2 guys who made my otherwise boring day more happening..

Oh, bought yet another new book to read.. "Blink".. seems interesting... Still tryin to look for Jay's new album.. Seems like its really selling like hotcakes...

Tmrl looks set to be another 'uneventful' day as i juz decline to join TYS,WK and JK at omni-theatre... Travel all the way there, and pay $10+ to watch something i'm not interested in.. Nah.. Ur enjoy bah...

This month really seems like i spent alot of money already.. But i juz can't tink where all the money go to... The bills haven even come in yet... The only route i can tink of that the missing money had taken, is into my stomach... Lol...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

"我加速超越 却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲 "

BTT pass le.. FTT on 18/11

Well.. Pass my BTT le.. Quite stress.. I finish the test very fast.. Den after that decide to go thru the test again.. Cos no one walk out yet.. Den juz as i about to press end test, the guy beside me the screen showed in big letters: FAIL.. Wah.. This cause me to hesitate for a few seconds den press end test..
Anyway, i was in time to book for FTT... The counter close at 2030hrs.. My test at 2000hrs.. Lucky me...

Started playing this online game called Maple Story.. I noe abit slow.. Haha.. Thanx to Evelyn and her Bro, i finally got it working.. Haha..

As i eat my supper, i can almost feel myself becoming fatter... Slowly, i'm becoming big,fat and ugly.. Not that i was small, thin and handsome in the first place.. Its not a transformation from gd to bad.. Its from bad to worse... Argh.........

"你心里理想情人是几分 是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分 会给怎样的人"

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Wad a hot day..

Morning made an exception and went for soccer with the rest.. it wasn't exactly a bad session.. not real bad.. u noe wad i mean...

Den at first wanted to go out in the afternoon.. So met online to discuss.. Took quite awhile fro everyone to come online and discuss.. But due to many conflicting preferances and ideas.. There was no conclusion.. And the 'high and mighty one' juz say.. since cannot decide den all stay home.. -_-.. To tink i tot we were on the verge of confirming gg to TYS hse liao.. Ha.. Looks like its maggi for dinner.. not that i minded stayin home..

I mean c'mon lah.. WK only juz came into discussion lor.. and we were juz tellin him our plans.. and discussing it wth him.. And both me and TYS already not much money left for the month liao lor.. still wanna play pool.. TYS already say he left wth $10+ liao lor.. Go his hse of course will be better for him rite..Some ppl juz can't think for others at all..

Thats juz me complaining.. Like WK says, i'm always complaining.. Ha.. dun be bothered..

Since they're all stayin home, dinner looks set to be Maggi KL style..

Anyway, i'm takin up some passive income opportunity liao.. Tryin to earn money..

Tmrl is my BTT day.. feelin a little stress...

"为了抢快乐　搞得不快乐 为什么人总那么傻呢 "

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Wad a downpour...

As i'm typin now, outside is raining like crazy.. Lightning flashes are lighting up the whole night scene.. and the thunder is louder than many many gunshots combined.. To think i was out there juz now.. its like flooding all over the place...

Met up wth Layee to get the Basic Theory Book and the 'TYS' from her.. Den eat dinner there also.. Den end up rain like siao.. Sway... anyway, thanx for the books.. i'll return once my test over k?? as if u'll need them again.. haha

With the books plus my own book in the bag, i decided against using my bag as a 'cover' .. So end up got home kinda drenched.. now shower le.. feel so comfortable.. haha

Oh.. Wk pass his BTT le.. Haha.. ok.. gd for you.. Final TT nxt huh..

Fri tmrl le.. Weekend coming.. Den nxt wk is one day wk.. haha..
Anyone wanna go out or anything jio me ya.. lol

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Overseas Scholarship??

Hmm.. Muz be JK's fault.. Got me all interested in this overseas scholarship thingy.. I actually applied for the account.. They gg to mail me the account details... Seriously, i noe i stand like 0% chance.. But then again, i have nothing to lose rite?? So why not... I mean if i do get it.. *Dream Dream*...

Juz got news tt i got guard duty on the 23rd NOV.. sian.. Guard 3IC again.. Lucky its a weekday..

Angeline jioing all ODACians to go for SIM charity walk on 27 Nov.. Says she wanna make it an informal ODAC gathering.. Well, if any ODACians do get to read this, juz approach her for details if u're interested ya..

Nxt wk got 2 days public holiday siah.. i'm tinking of taking wed and fri leave.. Den can have a long break.. Haha..
Anyway, nxt mon Basic Theory le.. Haven even get the book yet... Guess the last min preparation is still in me.. Haha.. Nvr fail to leave all the studying to the very very last min...

Part of a special song to me:

And as I look at my feet
These thoughts keep going in me...

I’ve been searching for life
Wondering who it could be
I really wish she'd just come for me
Oh... who could it be...

aLan ~ sAn dI

Weekend's coming to an end... Quite a weekend..

JK came back and told us about his experience in Brunei.. Not exactly the best place to go for a holiday huh...
Chatted wth him till quite late on Fri.. In fact we chatted till mornin of Sat.. Seems like he's interested in gg overseas for further education.. I'll quote Mr Bernard Tan in my respond to him " Why not?? " Juz give it a shot.. If u can, den isn't it gd? At the most if u can't make it, u juz stick wth NUS.. Nothing to lose.. All the best to you...
Told him bout some of my prob.. It always gd to be able to talk to someone bout probs.. i hope..

Bball this morning was nice.. except for the fact that caleb din turn up... Again have to quote TYS "Sometimes being hardworking is not enuf.. Luck plays an impt role" .. I played so hard, but still lost 21-20..

Anyway to Alvin (Lim), gd luck.. yah.. u noe wad i mean.. And sorry to both alvin (lim) and yvonne if wad i said caused any misunderstandings...

Oh.. My basic theory test is nxt Mon.. Haha.. Hopefully can pass lah.. Juz agreed to lend my luck to Layee first.. For her final theory.. Den get it back for my own tests.. Not sure if luck is really transferable.. haha.. all the best..
WK also taking basic theory this week.. Need luck can 'loan' from me lor.. haha..

Oh.. Heard from Jianming that my Er Ge got Silver Bayonet in ASLC.. Woow.. Congrats!!!!
See my Er Ge Zhai rite... Haha... Muz treat me and Da Ge leh... joking...

the songs:
牡丹江 南拳妈妈
做自己 同恩
愛我別走 張震獄

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Another happy birthday!!!

Ha.. this time is my own bdae.. lol..
Thanx to all the ppl who remebered my bdae.. Gary and Angeline were probably the earliest when their sms came in at bout 0010hrs.. Alvin and Layee send their wishes early in the morning.. Den it was WK and KKK (from Australia) in the afternoon.. Thanx to all..

The girls (2S04) actually even got me a present.. Haha.. Thanx girls.. It really came as a surprise.. Well, the present is real cute.. I like it.. haha.. Thanx.. Though a soft toy for a 19yr old guy seems abit weird.. but well, haha, i do tink its cute...

Thanx to Evelyn who came to pass me the present even though u got all ur tests and exams coming.. Really appreciate it...

Feelin very tired recently.. So many nice songs..

Oh, Jay's new album releasing on Nov 1.. The single already playin on the radio.. If u haven heard it, u shd go check it out.. not bad..

aLaN ~ sAn dI
1yr older.. not much achieved in this year...

happy bdae yet again..

First of all, happy bdae to one of my best fren for 9yrs and running, alvin.. 19 yrs old already huh..

Well, on off todae, so went out whole day. Morning went to meet KKK at HouMall played arcade. Den we met up wth WK and the 2 Alvins for more arcade and the movie " Goal!" Nice show..
After tt went Alvin's place play game.

I kinda hate myself, hate my life. Is it because of army? I dunno. Why is life so unfair? Why am I born poor, born stupid, born ugly, born with no talents? Does that means in my past life i did many wrong things? Or does it mean I'm suffering this lifetime so i can have a good next life? Sigh... Feel like I'm leading a life controlled by everyone and everything but myself. When can i ever choose my own path?

Juz me complaining again. Ignore me.

aLaN ~ sAn dI

Crazy...

kinda crazy weekend so far...

Fri after the trip to Simlim, i went home only to take a shower and go out again.. Met TYS,DM and Alvin for dinner.. Den we went 'shopping' abit.. After tt i went alvin's hse chiong game till like 0530 (Sat).. went to slp.. den woke up at like 0830 to get home by 0900.. Took a shower and i'm out again.. Met wth KKK, DM, DH, TYS and alvin lim for breakfast...

After breakfast, went home, shower, and i'm out again..To DM's hse play "Kingdom Under Fire".. Stupid KKK pang sei me..
After tt went to meet up wth the same grp of ppl in town go play arcade...Den go walk walk.. Den at first say wanna go chomp chomp for dinner.. end up go the Cartel at Serangoon Garden.. Joined by Fab and WK there... And after dinner it was home, shower and out again.. Watch EPL..

Juz got back...

Oh... Happy Bdae to Wee Keat !! All the best.. esp for ur *kahem...

Sun looks all set to be an uneventful day.. unless anyone got any plans....

*aLaN* ~ sAn dI

Hooray...

Went for my last specialist appointment todae.. And horray.. the specialist finally said the words i've waited for so long... " Your heart should be fine"... Woow... Great sigh of relief.. i almost wanted to shake his hands and all i can say was thank you.. thank you...

I can finally put away all the worries i had.. I juz feel my whole body feel lighter after that... It has been quite a scare.. But like the specialist said, u did fine on the treadmill (echocardio stress test) .. Well.. i won't exactly wanna appear weak and tired during the test.. Not when the medic attending to me looked so cute!!! lol... Well she is cute ok...

The happy me is back.. and bouncing wth life... Woooooow!!!!

Anyway, after the short 'chat' wth the doc, which i waited like 2hrs for my turn, i rush to meet DongHai at Simlim.. sorry lah Dong.. so late.. Wanted to buy a mp3 player.. after some consideration, i decided on the ipod nano.. But guess wad, all the stores in simlim out of stock..

So i'm probably gg to order one online.. its cheaper also.. and i can engrave something on the back of the nano.. cool!!

Oh.. But being cleared also means i've to go for course in Dec.. but actually its so slack.. so why not? stay in not so bad wad..
Save money on transport and meals. Anyway, i stay out now, everyday reach home already 7pm..Den also nothing much to do.. Almost everyone else stay in, where got ppl go out wth...
Come home also go online and see no one online chat wth.. Except a few persons.. sometimes only one person.. So stayin in may not be tt bad mah.. (tryin very hard to convince myself)

tHe sOnGs:
You're Beautiful James Blunt
恋爱ing 五月天
理想情人 杨丞琳

aLaN

Casualty play....

Well.. Back from casualty acting... Went outfield where there was NSmen training gg on.. Real large scale... Then i was wth the MedCoy...

Basically i'm like the main casualty.. When the big shot came to watch the whole 'play', i was already 'prepared' and lying in the ambulance.. So the ambulance juz roared into life and sent me to the tentage.. And there was a big hoo-har as i was being taken down the ambulance into the tent... My supposed injuries: Injured in blast explosion.. Suffered 2nd degree burn on left arm.. Had large lacerations on right chest and top of head... And i was put on drip of course...
The whole thing was finished bout 4 plus..

Den my instructors was kind enuf to drove me to Kranji Camp where we all took a shower be4 they drop me off at Yew Tee MRT as they head back to training.. How nice...

Fri specialist appt will determine whether i gg for course coming Dec...

Heard the coming course is 14 weeks.. i'll become a spec after the course and attain paramedic level 2.. and everyone seems determine to push me be a trainer den come back to where i am...

I have mixed feelings bout all these...

Anyway, pay's in.. So its time i start deciding whether its iriver, ipod nano or smthing else...

aLaN ~ sAn dI

the songs:
练习 刘德华
I Thought She Knew N'Sync
单眼皮 杨丞琳

SORRY!

Big sorry to alvin lim.. ha.. forgot bout ur bdae...
sori lah.. was too sick to think about anything at all last weekend... anyway glad to see u din 'waste' ur bdae away... Happy belated Bdae!!!!

Tmrl i'm gg outfield as casualty.. and i got to help out wth the manual pump while i'm not 'acting' .. seems like a tough day to come...

Reported sick for the first time in this camp... Got my first Att B in my NS life... lol.. Could hav gotten MC outside.. But i chose not to... Got the medication.. The Medical Officer gave me 2 options: either u stay in sick bay here i put u on drip, or u go back to work wth ' light duties' status... obvious which one i chose...

Think my body gettin more and more frail... and think my brain also gg down the slope...

Wanted to help Layee wth her MSN prob juz now.. but guess i not pro enuf... hehe... sori i couldn't help...


some nice songs:
知足 五月天
那女孩对我说 黄义达
可惜不是你 梁静茹
一路向北 周杰倫

May not be new songs.. juz songs i've been listenin to.. check them out if u haven already done so.. my choices.. my tastes... wad touches my heart truly...

aLaN

best inspiration but so wad....

Well.. one of my best inspiration for a song came..its one of the best cos its about myself... BUT.. i'm deciding to stop thinkin bout song-writing.. and i'm of course gg to stop writing.. and all my past few works are more or less gotten rid of.. i'm making myself a little promise.. tt all the song writing will wait till either i can compose songs or i find someone to compose..

This weekend look set to be another boring weekend... WK got duty todae so he's only bookin out tmrl and he gotta book in sun nite.. Poor KKK not booking out at all, he sure can do with a little encouragement (not from me of course)... And JK is probably at the airport now.. flying to brunei soon... Guess i'll be very much on my own.. sigh.. tink i'm slowly gettin use to leadin this kind of 'solo' lifestyle..

aLaN ~ sAn dI

p.s. life was never easy.. being me juz don't help...

Half day...

Well.. Seems tt my 'great talking ability' was in use again as i actually managed to persuade the most regimental warrant (my WSM) to allow me to go on half day off at last min notice.. haha.. and it certainly helps tt i gained his trust enough..

So i'm home by 1330hrs.. Gg my grandma's place wth my brother for dinner.. its been a long time since i visited them.. and since my brother is off from work as well, guess i shd juz drop by..

Well.. song writing ain't easy.. and i tink i sux.. perhaps i shd stop thinkin bout it.. furthermore i need someone to compose music first... argh...

oh.. tys jio go subaru challenge siah... haha.. seriously we dun really stand much chance.. but for the fun of it, why not.. if really lucky lucky win ar... hahaha...

anyone noe wad 暧昧 means?? i mean i dun really have a clear definition wad it means..
nice song though...

aLaN...

p.s. weekend's coming.. sore throat not over yet.. horrible feelin...

Yeah... it's definitely great to be home...

although my R&R quite sian due to the typhoon...
Yupz... just a few more weeks to P.O.P. hopefully can get a break after that...
Maybe then can go out kia kia lo...

But for now... still quite busy... so i guess won't be able to meet up for quite a while yet...

San Di... do let me know the results of the test ya? SMS also can...

Take care!

ChillZ

Er Ge~
FaBBy_Naibaf

A little worried..

Feelin a little worried.. I'm taking the echocardiograpghy stress later.. Gg for my medical appt at National Heart Centre...

Really dislike the irresponsibility of some ppl.. i treat them so gd.. then they dun even make the smallest effort to help me... (talking bout ppl from my camp).. Life is really gettin 'tiring' there..

Anyway, welcome back Er Ge.. Glad to see u're still alive and kicking after 2.5 weeks of training at Taiwan..

Happily ever after?? subjective??
Only one way to be happily ever after... that is to be satisfied with wadeva u are and wadeva u have...

怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够

aLaN

p.s. anyone got any nice songs to recommend??

wad in the world??

Well.. maybe i shd juz stop thinkin bout alot of stuff... juz when i was thinking bout evil in the world, the nxt day Bali was bombed yet again.. but i din wanna think about 'evil' on purpose.. i mean it juz came into my mind...

its sometimes scary how accurate ur gut feelings can get.. i mean, i come to realise, tt my gut feeling, my first thought is always more accurate than the decision when i try to analyse the prob or think logically...

Juz got back from a jog wth JK.. Heart wasn't feelin tt gd.. din manage to run the entire planned route.. but nvrm.. a gd jog still...

Tmrl gettin half day off to go Chinatown do some stuff... Anyone wanna go Chinatown?? haha.. Guess its me and my mp3....

aLaN
My past was a doubt.. i am living in doubt.. my future is also in doubt..

3 pointers rulz...

Played bball this morning.. only 4 of us... so we played 2V2..

And once again, 3 pointers make the difference.. haha.. won the last game (wth jk) almost all on my 3 pointers as i make 4/4.. lol.. alvin lim sure wasn't happy bout tt.. haha...

After bball went for lunch.. den went jk's hse play dynasty warrior..

we concluded Wei Yan ( character from the story) and DW are very alike.. haha..

Oh.. and wk, the BBQ ar, i dun mind lah.. juz tt i dun wanna be involve in the org.. very sian since last time.. get the rest to help u lah..

Alan

throat not feelin well.. can't sing.. can't even speak properly..

Ahem.. ahem...

Keep having to clear my throat.. maybe i'm spoiling my voice.. sore throat like not recovering..

Anyway, anyone noe wad is 'jia ying' (fake voice)? as in wad really does it mean and is it everyone can do it?? and how u do it??
I suspect i always sing in jia ying and i dun hav a original voice.. how??

aLaN

why is this world so 'evil'? backstabbing.. cunning plots.. i'm tired of all these.. who can i trust? wad can i trust?

A little accident..

A little accident on my way home.. The bus skidded on the slippery road after failing to brake at the traffic light.. It hit the side of the road.. The impact was quite big.. Many ppl were thrown off their seats... The 2 most seriously injured was this old indian lady who totally fell off her seat onto the floor.. tink she injured her leg.. but no open wounds.. the other was this old man who also got thrown off his seat completely.. He suffered cuts to his hand and knee.. Seems like quite a deep cut.. he was bleeding profusely and the blood was like drippin onto the floor..

Many kind ppl passed him tissues.. Then the driver called the ambulance.. The rest of the ppl were quite shaken.. i wanted to like get the first aid kit from the front and give tt guy a little bandage.. but from the way he can still shout vulgarities at the driver, i assume he's fine and doesn't need my help..

there was this small boy on board as well.. but luckily his mum was carryin him when the accident happen.. .phew..

tmrl wk jio go register for basic theory..

aLAn..

ps. anyone knows the exact location of the German sausage seller in Chinatown? let me noe.. thanx...

Tennis? Me?

Well.. somehow, jk managed to convince me to go for tennis this mornin..

So i took a ride in tys's car to the tennis court in YCK...

It was an ok session lah.. considerin i'm a first-timer, i did manged to hit some balls.. BUT..
i still dun tink its worth it.. i mean its $10 per hour.. and i'm probably real lousy.. the game probably din last more than 3 strokes be4 breakin the momentum..

Probably gg to stop here for tennis.. tried be4 liao.. so... haha

Den went jk's place chiong Dynasty Warrior... haha.. Liu Bei really cannot make it.. lol...
Xing Cai is cute!!!

Alan
" Life is bittersweet.. But i can't seem to find the sweetness in mine.. Sugar anyone?? "

Feelin weak..

Dunno why i bothered to come here to blog in the first place.. My fever is back and its gotten worse.. I'm feelin so weak i can't stand properly..

The feelin is horrible.. i feel so weak like a child.. can't do this can't do tt.. Call my mum here call my sis there..

This weekend probably gg to hav nothing but resting for me..

To all my gd frens out there who're lookin for tt someone to fill the empty 'space' in your lifes,
i dun deny i am too.. But sometimes, we have to leave everything to fate.. Wadeva will be will be.. i really wish to help ur.. but this is something i myself can do nothing about.. and somehow i believe i'm a jinx.. really..

Already not feelin well.. so mood is very down.. but readin all my close frens' blog.. i only got myself sadder.. i wish i can juz let go and cry sometimes.. but i can never muster the courage to let down my first tears in more than 10 years..

anyway.. to all who bothers readin this blog, take care.. fallin sick sux..
and remember, sometimes u have to be the 'bad' guy..

Alan...
someone savveee me...

MC..

Took MC for todae.. Headache was still there this morning..

Congrats to TYS for gettin ur driving license...
So we got ourselves another possible driver to drive us arnd..lol

Anyway i'm feelin much better now... Shd be fully recovered soon.. i mean even my lymph nodes are swollen.. So it's gotta be soon tt i recover rite?

Alan

" They say my life will change
They say the future will be better
But i tried so and battled
Doing all i can
But it only happen in my dreams.. "

Headache...

Took half day off todae...

Sufferin from a very bad headache that started ystdae.. Came home slept the whole afternoon..
But when i woke up, my head still hurts.. Had my dinner.. Took a couple of panadols.. Now i'm feelin much better.. Dunno wads wrong wth me...

Alan
" the pain.. muz stop somewhere... "
Terry Fox

Sat nite...

Ok.. i'm not gg for course.. meanin i'm gg to lobo for at least 2 more months..

Juz got home not long ago from alvin's hse.. Played monopoly, PES and watched some EPL actions.. Fantasy league not lookin gd..

I really hope to write songs.. i mean compose music i cannot lah.. but writing the lyrics.. I really wanna give it a shot.. Though i'm probably lousy...

Tmrl gg kbox wth 3 other guys..

i've always dislike ppl who can't keep their promises or do not act on wad they say.. so i seldom promise ppl stuff unless i'm really confident of it...

Alan

ps. anyone got any tuition assignment to recommend to me??

Range sentry..

Got half day off todae.. But there is a catch of course..

Tmrl i'll have to go for range sentry duty again.. Sian.. Its a real tiring and boring to do lor..

Anyway, i'm most probably not gg to the coming Combat Medic Course (which starts nxt mon)..

Meaning i'll remain a TSS (Temporary Support Staff) at SMM NSTW..

Alan

Weekend...

So much has happened since the last time i blogged..

Tmrl i'll still be on leave.. Ya.. 4 days long weekend...

Get use to a feeling (sad, happy, etc) .. Recognise how it feels so u noe how to deal wth it nxt time.. But there's this one emotion i encountered i can't overcome... Regret..

Alan

To Da Ge: Enjoy ur MC.. Hope u're fine now..
To Er Ge: Take care for ur stay in ROC.. All the best and remember.. Safety first..
And regarding ur new plastic, 'toot'-looking specs, dun worry bout it... at the worse u'll probably juz look like me.. lol

long-derserved break..

Managed to take leave coming fri and nxt mon.. Meanin i got a 4 days long weekend..

My quads muscles are aching.. Went for jog wth JK ystdae.. Jogged about 5km.. And i'm like damn shag already.. Fitness really dropped alot.. Sigh..

Tmrl probably gg to run again wth WK this time.. Hopin to keep up this exercise regime.. Can help me regain my fitness and get rid of all the fats.. I'm gettin so fat...

Oh, while in camp todae, i got abit tired reading my book and there was no one in office cos its lunch time (meanin no one to gimme work).. So i juz started writing a song.. Haha.. Not really like those professionals.. Juz wrote the lyrics w/o giving much thought bout the tune.. Anyway its in simple english.. Did it in like 10mins?? Haha.. Maybe i'll take some time to refine it.. When the inspiration comes.. Meanwhile, gotta start thinkin of how to get a tune for the song..

Alan

P.S
So far no plans for my long weekend.. so anyone got any plans can jio me ya.. best is budget-friendly ones..

Hey brudders...

Da Ge.. Congrats on passin your IPPT..
Er GE.. ROC muz take care of urself.. Hav as much fun as possible..

San Di..

I'm here

HAH! look who's talking... :p

But the truth is I'm really too lazy... BUT! I've been reading k? So i'm know what has been going on.

Just posting here to show that i've not forgotten.

Fabby, take care during your stay in ROC and have fun...
And KL, just really take care... hope there'll be no more relapses.

AMoS

PS: I like that song... ever heard of Bad Day by Daniel Powter?

Long time never type here le...

Sorry to San Di... didn't really go out these few days...
To Da Ge... Eh, why never come here anymore har? Or too lazy to post issit?

Will be going to R.O.C. for training on the 12th... will be back about 3 weeks later lorz...

Until then... take care ya? Please do...

FaBBy_Naibaf

My Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

[Chorus]
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
to be like me

[Chorus]

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

[Chorus] x2

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

There is always a limit to everything in life...

And like a rubber band, if u try to stretch it within its limit, it'll go back to normal..

But when u go beyond the limit, the rubber band will snap.. And that, is a irreversible process..

When that happens, nothing will be the same again...

Alan...

" Only when facing death do people realise what they try to achieve their whole life is wrong.."

Run of bad luck cont'd..

Met up wth some of 2S04 for dinner @ Chomp Chomp...

Den went KKK's hse watch EPL..

Bad luck continues.. 1 player sent off.. 5 players booked.. Sigh.. Looks like its another disappointing gameweek..

To set things straight, i'm not gay.. lol.. This is probably the first time i'm saying this in 'public'..
I admit i did took a liking for a girl back in college... No point sayin who.. Cos there's no more feelings left.. Dun bother asking me who.. as i said it doesn't matter anymore..

Anyway for now, i'm worryin more on where i shd go for my nxt phase of studies.. Getting a girfriend is not exactly top on my list now.. Anyway gotta wait till i meet new ppl (in uni) wad..

Alan

how unlucky can i get?

Lets start from mornin..

I was cooking smthing and i forgot about it.. It was only when it was boiling over did i remember bout it.. In my hurry to remove the cover, i used my bare hands.. Yup i got my fingers burnt..

Den i wanted to go to the library and buy myself lunch at the same time.. So took a shower and off i go.. soon after i left, i realised tt my mp3 got no more battery.. I took out my reserve battery and replaced it.. Only to find out both batteries are dead..

After gettin the books, i went to buy a packet of porridge for my lunch.. No more than 10 steps after i got my lunch, it somehow slipped and dropped on the floor..

Weather was windy and cooling.. So i decided to walk home instead of taking the bus.. On my way home, this car actually brushed past my left leg from behind.. it was no more than an inch from knocking me down.. My hp in my left pocket even receive a knock from the car..

And its barely 1530.. Wonder how the rest of my day will be like.. Sigh..

Alan

Confused...

Finally back from the 2 days range.. Sentry duty there sux.. Horrible time i had..

Had been asking arnd bout Uni life.. Tryin to see if i can finally decide where to go and wad course to take.. But conclusion, i'm still confused...
NUS??? NTU?? SIM?? SMU?? Poly??

Argh...

Alan

Learning how to die is learning how to live...

Stayin in??

Got the day off for my medical check up at National Heart Centre..

Went there took blood test first.. Damn.. It was painful.. Either the nurse was rough or i became 'weaker'.. I dun remember it being so painful the last time i took it.. Anyway now the whole area where the needle 'violated' me is all bruised up.. Argh..

Den suppose to take this Stress Echocardiography thingy also... But they say i got flu so can't take.. Waste my time go there.. Worse still is for this test, cos i'm under 21, one of my parent has to be arnd..

Oh.. I'm probably gg to stay in camp tonite.. Involved in the range for nxt 2 days as sentry for the ammo.. Gotta report at 6am tmrl mornin, might as well stay in.. Can get more rest and save on the taxi fares..
And since its till thurs, i'll stay in on wed nite as well.. I mean why not.. Saves time and money on transport..

Anyway almost everyone else is stayin in..

Alan

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

Weekend over soon...

The weekend is comin to an end already..

Watched EPL at KKK's place wth WK ystdae.. Long time since i watch any soccer actions.. The Man United game was rather ok only.. Instead the Tottenham Middlesborough game was much more exciting.. Can tell this season Tottenham is gg to be pretty strong this year.. Wth all the new signings and the already there players... A team to watch for sure..

Played soccer this morning.. Had quite an enjoyable session.. Though we won only like half the games.. But we had a few gd games and everyone was enjoying much of the session.. And i managed to score a few.. One of which i'm really proud of.. A solo effort that saw me dribbled past 3 players be4 placing a shot out of reach of the keeper..

Came home.. Slp till bout 1800 den wake up..

I guess tts my weekend..

VS gg co-ed.. Am i for it or against it?? I dunno.. gd and bad..

Alan..

"I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind"

WTF??

Juz got my broadband todae..

But whenever i'm online, though the phone can be used, but there's the static sound in the background.. WTF.. I'm so damn pissed... Den my dad keep nagging and nagging.. Tell him dun touch the modem and stuff till i come back.. But.......

Den fantasy league so f**ked up.. I actually din successfully made the transfer of dickov for bent.. WTF?? and i got so many big fat zeroes... Argh...

I'M GOING CRAZY...

Alan..

i dun wanna face this reality cos i got an ideal...

Life...

Todae mornin played bball as usual.. Den went JK's hse chiong Dynasty Warrior for like wad, 5 hrs? .. Played till 1820.. From 1300 lor..

Den went home.. Eating dinner out so jio JK eat at coffeeshop near our hse.. Chatted alot during dinner.. Seems like his life as ACC reaally sux.. After dinner he stll has some time to spare so chatted at the bus stop for awhile..

JK, like everyone else, seems to look to uni as smthing very much better than our lives now.. I noe it'll be better, but by how much, i really dunno.. Not puttin much hopes on it..

JK is right.. I'm tryin to escape from reality.. I dun deny it.. I'm too afraid to face reality.. Reality to me is so sad.. So many problems but so little ans.. So many difficulties so little solutions.. So many sad moments so little happy ones..

JK says its all NS's fault.. I dun deny NS plays a big role in making our lives sux.. But i dun think it's the only one.. Lets juz hope life can get better soon.. For all of us...

Alan

i wanna cry but there ain't no tears..

Half day off...

Todae, morning reported to camp as per normal.. Den given half day off by my TO (Training Officer).. Cool .. Cos everyone else was on off.. So no point keepin the TSS..

So i went Parkway for pool wth TYS and WK..

Had lunch and dinner there.. Den went home..

Den went Kovan wth Fab and JK.. Went to Mac where we ate a 'little' snack and chatted.. Den suddenly this grp of 4 came up to us and ask if we're from the 16th Batch SRJC ODACians.. It turns out they're from the 18th Batch.. They recognised us from the t-shirt we're wearing (our 16th ODAC t-shirt) .. So they sat down and we chatted bout ODAC... One of them turns out to be their batch's president.. haha.. So we talked bout our ODAC back then and they talked a little bout theirs.. They juz took over not long ago.. Exchanged contact numbers.. They seem to wanna invite us back.. 3 of us do really wanna go back to see wad ODAC is doing now and how much changes there have been.. As usual, we gave them the advise to study hard...

Oh.. and apparantly, they heard about this 16th batch ODACian who did well in 'A' levels.. Haha.. Muz be JK lah.. LOL.. famous liao..

On way home wth JK, the main topic of conversation: Bball VS Soccer..Which one is for us?

This is a topic much debated about in our gang...

This debate very long le.. But there is still no outcome..


Alan
" I'm too shy to ask..
I'm too proud to lose... "

Pay Day!!

And so its pay day again..

Morning went for bball.. Abit slpy.. Din slp much considering i only got home 0345 cos i was playin Dynasty Warrior at JK's place..

Played a few 3v3.. Den brunch at HP as usual..

Went Pool Junction played pool wth TYS and WK.. Den went to meet up wth the main cast of 2S04'04.. JK,FAb and DM.. Went for dinner at Sizzler's.. Yup.. 2nd month in a row i ate there on payday.. Nice place.. Chatted alot alot as usual and ended wth an arcade session which saw DM rise to the rank of BG.. Tts like so woah.. I only got LTC highest lor..

Den DM gotta book in.. The remainin 4 of us juz walked arnd here and there ( dun wanna get caught in the crowd at Citi link) Ended up at Mac chatting over drinks.. Much bout our class (Best CG'04)

Den it was home.. Saw a grp of Malays fighting at a bus stop.. Stress.. Stun...

To DM:
Din u wan a day for our class activity? wad bout our payday?? lol

To Da Ge:
I hope ur fine (ur leg) and hopefully u can come over and help me wth my com soon..

To Er Ge:
Maybe can meet for dinner wth me and TYS since u're stayin out this week.. haha

To TYS:
I'll let u noe if i find any tuition assigment..

To JK:
Regardin ur 'advise' on gettin an 'authenticate one', i guess its up to luck.. Like TYS says: Luck is when preparation meets opportunity.. Without opportunity there is nothing....



Alan

"I'm sick of this life.
I juz wanna scream...."

Guard Duty...

Sian.. Sun guard.. meaning i gotta book in in a few hrs time..

Juz got back from a supper + talk cock session wth Senghou + Affiliations ( - Alvin whos in taiwan).. Long time no sit together chat le.. Everyone busy wth their own life... All different vocation.. All different camp.. All different job scope...

Morning quarrelled wth my Mum.. Went JK's hse not long after tt.. Played Dynasty Warrior 5..
Completed 2 quests.. Den went for dinner at HP..

Met TYS den went for bball... WK joined the grp.. Den DW came real late (2130).. By then we already finishin liao... Den KKK shock us by coming like 2200.. lol... But he came to chat and eat only..

Attn DM:
By the time u read this (i hope u get to read this), i'm probably doing guard duty already...
Regarding the class outing, here are the response so far:

Can go:
Me,JK,TYS and U..

To be confirmed:
JJ and RS

Confirmed not gg:
HX, Yvonne, shuhui and haoyi..

The rest nvr gimme any response..I'll let u noe if there're any changes..

U need any help can sms me.. Actually, can get TYS help...
Firstly, he's on off/leave all the way till wed...
Secondly, he's better wth human relations, so he claims (esp wth girls!!)

Alan

I wanna help.. But how??

Seems tt almost everyone in Senghou is troubled.. I seem to be the least troubled...

I really wish to help.. But i dunno how.. All i can do and had been doing is lend a listening ear.. Senghou needs help... Haven seens KKK for a long time.. Hopefully he's still fine and untroubled.. Not like the remainin 4 of us...

Furthermore, even our 2 affiliations got their own bad patches to walk thru..

There are somethings that will remain in our hearts forever and ever.. To erase is impossible..
To ignore is deceiving oneself..

Alan

"And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again.... "

How can i help???

Juz received a call from one of my best fren ever.. He called from Taiwan.. Seems tt he's devastated.. Shan't explain..

He called trying to look for someone to talk to and perhaps try to lessen his despair.. But i dunno wad to do to help...

I wish i can do smthing.. But i dunno wad to do...

Sometimes i feel like i'm a jynx.. All those close to me seems to meet wth difficulty in their love life.. I wanna help.. But how?? Maybe tts the prob.. I should juz back off...

Alan

BBall !!

Juz got back from a bball session..

6 of us.. JK,DW,TYS,Alvin(Lim),Caleb and me..

Quite an enjoyable session.. Everyone played ok with a few like caleb doing better..

I dunno but i feel like i seem to be dropping in standard.. Though the rest dun think so, i juz have this feelin i'm not as gd (or lousy) as be4.. I'm lousier...

I still sink shots here and there.. But the accuracy has dropped.. 3 pointers made are decreasing.. Guess like wad JK say, i juz need to play more..

Feelin tired.. Ya i'm actually quite shack after this bball session.. Its been a long time since i did any physical activity..

Guess i'm gg to spend the rest of the day resting.. wanted to borrow tian long ba bu frm JK.. End up he already lent it to other fren... Luckily i got my books...

Alan

"Can you see me, here I am
Standing here where I've always been...."

Saturday..

Morning went Kbox wth DW and WK.. Quite some time since we last went Kbox le..
Sang till like 1430 bout there..

Then we signed up as member at this pool place (woodball association i tink) for $1 den we played pool there.. Triple threat our style.. Ended bout 1730.. Den they went for dinner.. I wasn't hungry.. So went home..

Wanted to play bball.. But TYS dun wan den JK got a funeral to attend.. So called off.. So i called up Er Ge and we met at Kovan for dinner.. Chatted bout our NS life.. Yeah... ORD is wad we looking forward to man...

Though kinda late, Da Ge came too.. Den we chatted for awhile more and i decided to head home first.. Well.. They were suppose to be meetin some other frens.. But because of me, they could only join their frens like 2200+.. Hehe.. Sori bout tt man brudders..

Bball tmrl.. Yah.. Hopefully it'll be enjoyable.. I really hope so... Its beem quite some time since i enjoyed myself for a bball or soccer session already.. I dunno if its juz me.. Maybe.. But sometimes, after tolerating ppl for long time, it may juz get too much for me to take and juz explode.. Dun push me to tt limit..

Alan

"Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life..."

Juz a nice song...

Backstreet Boys» Siberia

When you come back
I won't be here
She said and gently pulled me near
If you want to talk you can call
And no it's not my fault

I just smiled and said let go of me
But there's something that I've just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I was drifted in between
Like I was on the outside looking in, yeah yeah
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

Oh yeah, my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though I was sleeping in your bed

'Cause someone else was on your mind
In your head

When I came back she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
If you want to talk give me a call

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too
(When the one that you want doesn't want you)

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too
Siberia, Siberia
When the one you want doesn't want you too

p.s. BSB Never Gone

Wad can he do??

Lim Kiat Loong, 18 , passed out frm BSLC.. Posted to ASLC..



He's 18.. Passed out frm ASLC.. His parents watch proudly as their son march in the passin out parade.. Wears the chevron for him..

He's 19.. Already wearin the khaki beret havin completed the GCC not long ago.. He brings his men out for trainin juz like his instructors use to do..

He's 20.. ORD lor.. Went to University.. He joined the Outdoor Act Club.. He's climbing mountains..

He's 25.. Graduate liao... his parents watch wth tears in their eyes as their son receive his degree..

He's 26.. Got a job.. He's earning 4k a month...

He's 28.. He got himself a car.. Its the Subaru Impreza..

He's 32.. He proposed the girl he's been dating for years.. With tears in her eyes, she agreed..
His white-haired parents has tears of joy in their eyes as they welcome the guests..

He's 35.. His son's borned.. A cute little boy that looks like him when he's young...

He's 38.. He starts a business wth few of his best frens..

He's 40.. Business was fantastic.. They became youngest millionares arnd..

BUT he's only 18.. he's only a OOC...




Alan

Back from SGH..

Well.. Went SGH National Heart Centre todae.. Went there, took ECG again.. Waited in queue for long long time.. See the specialist.. Talk less than 2mins.. And there..I'm outta the place..

Only thing i got, 2 more appointments for checkup.. Basically todae's session was totally useless..
Taking 2 more tests on Aug23 and gg back to see the specialist on Sept9...

Luckily got whole day off.. But nothing to do... Got time also dunno do wad..

Oh..i got a job..

Alan

Down memory lane...

Todae, after booking out, went over to pick my sis up frm sch.. Not smthing unusual.. Ever since i became 0800-1730 its quite often i do tt..

As i was lookin out for my sis among all the kids, the memory of me when i was in Pri Sch came to me.. I was probably like one of them back then, can't wait to tell mum about the newest full marks for spelling.. Or how the boy from the other class got caned.. I guess life back then was much more carefree.. No worries.. Now its different..

Alan

" Imagination is more important than facts. "
Albert Einstein

I'm sick...

Got the flu.. Sore throat.. Feelin feverish... Basically horrible..

Nothing to do.. Juz wanna type something..

Oh to all my Fantasy League pals.. The league is open liao.. Though i'm quite sure no one will select their teams so early.. But there are some changes to the games.. Scoring system also got abit of modifications.. So u guys shd check it out...

Alan...

A*choo...

Mahjong craze...

Juz finish a 2nd round of mahjong in a day... Spent the whole night and early morning playin mahjong at Alvin's hse ystdae.. Alogn wth JK and WK, we headed to his hse straight after finishing our pool session at Parkway..

Came home and slpt the whole afternoon... Den met Alvin,KKK and WK for dinner be4 all headed for my place for another round of Mahjong.. Loser was WK so he treated us to some drinks...

Fri was quite a horrible day for me.. My chest was feelin uncomfortable thru the whole evening.. I was so scared.. So tis tht suddenly came to me: i shd increase my life insurance.. Leave more money to my parents in case anything happen to me...

They say life is short.. So we shd treasure every min of it and make full use of all the time we got.. But since life is short, why bother??

Alan

" i've made my mistakes, got nowhere to run. the nights go on as i'm fadin away..
I juz wanna scream...... How could this happen to me???? "

..

Collected 'A' level cert todae.. Its one of the most awful looking piece of paper i ever gotten.. Damn.. Can't blame anyone or anything.. Its my fault and its only my fault..

Went to library on my own.. Returned the books and borrowed a few.. Den went home walkin in the rain.. Picked up my sis frm sch be4 leavin for HouMall again to meet WK for dinner and pool..

Race to 11.. Lost 11-10.. Really felt damn 'sway'.. Sigh.. Everything seems to be on the downside for me.. Recently i haven been happy at all.. And it doesn't help tt Senghou seems to be gettin more heated discussions everytime we talk bout something.. Esp durin soccer... Seems tt wadeva the gang do, someone will be unhappy..

I feel like all my confidence (however little there was in the first place) are being taken away... My morale is below sea-level no matter wad i am doing..

Alan

" If i lose it all, there'll be nothing left to lose." - is tt how i shd look at my life??

Sizzlinh sizzlers...

Todae bascially played pool and had dinner wth Senghou (- the on duty JK)

Dinner was at Sizzler's.. Quite worth the money..

Den on way back talked so much bout wad we can do and where we can go.. End up?? Go home..

Tmrl soccer.. TYS and WK bought their Total90.. Alvin and KKK already hav them..
Tt leaves me.. Guess i'm sticking wth my Umbro.. Anyway i'm only a utility player..

Alan..

School of Military Medicine...

Posted to SMM.. But the combat medic course only starts on 19th Sept..

For now i'm considered Temp Support Staff.. Meanin stay out and slack..

Went for dinner wth TYS den played bball at TYS's hse there wth him and JK..

Juz got home.. Feelin so broke..

Alan

"Wo yi lu xiang bei..."

School Routine Orders: Posting out....

I'm posted out.. Out of SISPEC.. Out of Tekong..

I'm suppose to be happy.. But.. I'm havin mixed feelings.. Come to tink of it, life hasn't really been tt bad on Trainin Team at SISPEC HQ.. Gonna miss everyone there.. And the durian picking and eatin sessions.. Doubt i'll ever hav tt kind of life again...

Well.. Posted to Nee Soon Camp.. As a Combat Medic..

Kinda stupid.. We're ppl OOC frm ASLC.. Wad makes them tink we're fit to go thru the combat medic course? Anyway, the course haven start and i probably will be doing nthing when i report there tmrl.. Maybe by the time the course starts, i'll be downgraded at the start of it..

Alan

" they walk, we walk
they run, we run
they carry, we carry more
they fall, we cannot fall
cos they need us to save them"
Combat Medic

Nights off..

Addicted to Jay's 'Yi Lu Xiang Bei' (Initial D theme) liao.. Its on replay on my player.. Listenin to it every time i got free time.. Haven seen the lyrics yet.. Dun really noe wad he singing yet.. Its juz the melody and music.. I juz listen to the song go... Nice...

Tmrl bookin out for off till thurs.. Allow us to collect 'A' lvl cert.. Sigh.. 'A' Levels...

Few more hrs to bookin in... Can't wait for payday.. Really really broke...

Alan sadly...

Book in day...

Once again its book in day..

Stayed over at Alvin's hse last nite.. Chiong Underground 2 and PES4.. Slpt at 6 am only to wake up at 8am for bball...

Watched Initial D liao... Quite ok movie wad.. Why some say no gd?

BBall session wasn't as fun.. Maybe its me... Its always me isn't it...

Sometimes i wonder.. Why am i such a loser.. sigh..

Lookin back in life, there ain't much thing i did tt i can look up to and take any pride.. Sigh..

Alan..